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trans_92010-09-03 12:17 pm
morphitudinous) wrote in trans_92010-09-03 12:17 pm
Things We Never Said [Open]
Billy could see it clearly in his mind's eye:
Billy, Cassie, and Jamie would be wielding the new and improved Slop Immobilizer Gun, wearing their brand new non-stick safety uniforms, and presenting the project with triumphant smiles on their faces. They finally built something that wouldn't stick when it wasn't meant to. With that great weapon, they could trap their opponents non-lethally and be considered heroes for finding a use for the almost universally loathed slop.
It was now a scene that would never come to pass. Oh, Billy was still there, and Jamie was, and the gun was, and of course the slop would never ever go away, much to their dismay, but nothing remained of Cassie Lang but their memories.
Their partner, their friend. Dead. Billy thought back on all he knew of her: her family life, developing as a hero, her friends, her spirit, her contributions. All of that culminating in one of the better people he'd known, never to be seen again. Never to be thanked for all she'd done, and even he saw this. Comparatively he hadn't known her extremely well, but she was one of his own. Like B5 had been.
It was that thought that drove Billy into another version of the attack simulation, wielding the gun from his fantasy once more. He'd thought he was going to call Jamie and Cassie for the victory after the crisis, but he would now be running the test alone. Soon enough, the moving targets were in place and the first shots were fired.
Blam. Blam. This time, it worked exactly as intended, but there was no joy left in Billy's heart to celebrate. Instead, he found himself lowering his gun arm and starting to cry.
"Cassie..."
((Open because he'll be mourning here for a little while, even knowing that everyone knows where he is. Renne's last chronologically for now, but I'll work out some semblance of chronology at the end. I don't wanna leave anyone out.))
Billy, Cassie, and Jamie would be wielding the new and improved Slop Immobilizer Gun, wearing their brand new non-stick safety uniforms, and presenting the project with triumphant smiles on their faces. They finally built something that wouldn't stick when it wasn't meant to. With that great weapon, they could trap their opponents non-lethally and be considered heroes for finding a use for the almost universally loathed slop.
It was now a scene that would never come to pass. Oh, Billy was still there, and Jamie was, and the gun was, and of course the slop would never ever go away, much to their dismay, but nothing remained of Cassie Lang but their memories.
Their partner, their friend. Dead. Billy thought back on all he knew of her: her family life, developing as a hero, her friends, her spirit, her contributions. All of that culminating in one of the better people he'd known, never to be seen again. Never to be thanked for all she'd done, and even he saw this. Comparatively he hadn't known her extremely well, but she was one of his own. Like B5 had been.
It was that thought that drove Billy into another version of the attack simulation, wielding the gun from his fantasy once more. He'd thought he was going to call Jamie and Cassie for the victory after the crisis, but he would now be running the test alone. Soon enough, the moving targets were in place and the first shots were fired.
Blam. Blam. This time, it worked exactly as intended, but there was no joy left in Billy's heart to celebrate. Instead, he found himself lowering his gun arm and starting to cry.
"Cassie..."
((Open because he'll be mourning here for a little while, even knowing that everyone knows where he is. Renne's last chronologically for now, but I'll work out some semblance of chronology at the end. I don't wanna leave anyone out.))
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His pain was just making Alex's worse, so he needed to keep it under control. If he could do it without endangering Alex, he would have tried to squeeze his shoulder.
"I will, somehow. There's not much else we can do for the pain except give it time. It's...thanks, Alex. It means a lot."
He managed a wavery smile remembering a conversation with Cassie from around a month ago. She would want him to keep reaching out.
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When had she said that? He could hear her saying it in her voice that could make even the harshest sounds in German sound soft and sweet. He smiled warmly, if bitter-sweetly. He wasn't entirely sure if he believed it himself, but it sounded nice. It sounded like something he wanted to hear.
Loretta would be impressed if she saw him here, talking with Billy despite the shadow. It had been next to impossible to get him to talk to anyone new back home. Here he had decided to fight against his nature, if only because it was a new start. He was happy to see that his reaching out might actually be helping others, even if it was in the lightest bit.
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He tried his best to smile, even if what came out was a pathetic watery line.
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Though he clearly had an American accent, he clearly said mum instead of mom. It was one of the bits of the German language that his mother always spoke in that slipped into his speech even though he could only understand the language. A small change in sound that betrayed a bit of his culture.