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Denial? Just a little bit.
Who: Kaya, open to all.
Where: Sensoriums
Summary: Ed not remembering her is sort of the last straw, so she's getting her aggressions out.
Warnings: Um. Are there any? TBA, I guess?
But so much for that now. Right now Kaya, who had had a pretty bad last few months, found the last straw was bringing Ed back and having him not even recognizer her had been the last straw. Now she was just standing here, around a background of water and streams, and she was moving in a combination.
First there was her own bending. Smooth, flowing each movement into the other, legs supporting the base as arms and shoulders tensed and drew forward, calling the water up and around her, making waves into developed whips, turning that into solid substances and back again.
And then, when the Bene Gesserit came into play, that slowed but accurate action became quick, deliberate fast. Her body become a putty oin increments as she geared for offensive kicks and movement, pushing her body to the limits here. There was no turning back, no moment of reflection.
At this moment, Kaya wondered what would become of her training, if they would form a base of strength and bending even she didn't fully understand yet. She would put aside those feelings of helplessness, of pain she could not do more.
Where: Sensoriums
Summary: Ed not remembering her is sort of the last straw, so she's getting her aggressions out.
Warnings: Um. Are there any? TBA, I guess?
But so much for that now. Right now Kaya, who had had a pretty bad last few months, found the last straw was bringing Ed back and having him not even recognizer her had been the last straw. Now she was just standing here, around a background of water and streams, and she was moving in a combination.
First there was her own bending. Smooth, flowing each movement into the other, legs supporting the base as arms and shoulders tensed and drew forward, calling the water up and around her, making waves into developed whips, turning that into solid substances and back again.
And then, when the Bene Gesserit came into play, that slowed but accurate action became quick, deliberate fast. Her body become a putty oin increments as she geared for offensive kicks and movement, pushing her body to the limits here. There was no turning back, no moment of reflection.
At this moment, Kaya wondered what would become of her training, if they would form a base of strength and bending even she didn't fully understand yet. She would put aside those feelings of helplessness, of pain she could not do more.
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Kaya was quiet here. She had no answer for that: why the members had been distant to her when, even in the brevity of her being here, Katara had been willing to listen, to talk. With Aang she understood, he had betrayed Katara being with her. She understood. With the others, it was mirrored what no one said:she was a stranger. And even with her new family here on the ship loving her, nothing was more a slap in the face then never really seeing the GAang.
And maybe, talking about Ty Lee, what she wanted was to hurt Azula, in a small way, because this was something she had no answer to herself. Giving and losing, and in the end having them podded all over again. There was only one other thing she knew could hurt Azula, a thing that could undo all the advances she made.
It was a thing, a last thing, that she would never tell her. The thing that could only be told at torture point, and maybe not even then.
"I was trained to put my emotions aside, at least there," Kaya finally answered. "My teachers did their best. If I feel sadness, it will be for the family I made on the ship. Because before that, the departure of the people in our world was a dagger in me. I won't let that pain come back to haunt me again."
It still stung though. They being podded, leaving her here, muddying through what she did allow herself to feel.
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When Kaya spoke again Azula only relaxed about a half inch of the flames but her eyes were still sharp waiting for the next verbal blow to fall.
"Because clearly putting your emotions aside has worked this long. Surely using the same tactic that's brought you to this place in your life will see you through rather then drive you deeper."
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"This is the place where I learn to conquer the things that hurt me," Kaya said. "All that frustration and anger and self hate, I channel it here, in the words my mentors taught me, in the way I can tell myself that the biggest enemy I have is myself. Reminds me I am stronger than the way I feel. But I let the hurt in too, or I would be in danger if doing it the wrong way."
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Really, having friends would do Azula a world of good too.
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Oh, she understood they wouldn't be seeing things eye to eye. But Azula asked, she answered, simple as that.
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She didn't even mention her Bond with Billy, but that was another story in itself.
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She was so TIRED of being nice and being helpful and earnest, only to get rewarded with more bad news, more friends leaving, and someone who had to constantly belittle her when she actually dared to feel bad about it.
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This was probably a bad thing, but right now she needed to get out her frustration out right NOW.
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It may come in handy some day.
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Now her movements were quicker, deliberate, almost deadly. You could almost feel the change in aura compared to her marriage of her own bending and movement. If Azula could see her before, she could not now: Kaya's movement was much quicker now, showing less of her bending and more of her prowess.
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So this was why she was always so impertinent and full of herself. Up till now Azula thought it was just a trait of Water tribe women that they didn't know to recognize true strength.
But would she? Could she?
The disposed princess had to find out for herself. Like a flash she was in the air sending blazing fireballs the size of ripe melons down upon Kaya like deadly hail.
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It oly took a moment to feel the change in the air: where it had only just been calm before now there was a buzz of change, and it took that moment for Kaya to realize the relatively calm stance Azula had changed, in a big way. Once she saw her take to the air, she was already on guard, and the fireballs were sidestepped. In a blur, Kaya avoided them, her muscles tense, at the ready for whatever Azula would come at her next with.
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Kaya had no intention of disappointing her.
She flipped, darted, and ducked the fire with relative ease, one step ahead of these attacks. Kaya hardly had practice with her speed, but here it came naturally, and she realized her waterbending had prepared her for this. Defense sometimes meant being where the attack was not, showing her opponent that physical strength could sometimes blind you to how you put yourself out of balance.
And as Azula rushed in, Kaya didn't have to lose her head: she knew Azula was now, that her lack of composure, which she knew the firebender possessed, would lead to her fall. Kaya reacted simply: she moved out of way of the blasts, and moved closer to Azula.
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It made it worse that she could see measures of her old self in how calm and cool Kaya was handling it. The orange flames were a testimony to how much skill had been lost in her madness.
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Which was why she had no intention of fighting Azula with her bending: she would be too afraid to fight back. Instead, she moved swiftly, daring away from the fame, coming up to Azula, rearing back and hip tossing hera few feet.
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Instead the real Azula grumbled to herself already on her way to the door to leave. She had created a second Azula using the sensorium to fight Kaya hoping to gain some insight on her skills.
All she'd gotten out of it was frustration. Just how much had she really lost since her break?
Could she ever really get it back?
She had known in a fair fight she couldn't beat Kaya. Hadn't Kaya already proven that before? And in her current state even Azula couldn't keep up just watching her moves.
What was left of her pride was dieing a slow, painful death.
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"Wait," she said, then raised her voice. "Wait! I don't want you to leave!"
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