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[saint-sami.livejournal.com]

To say that Sasami was conflicted at the moment would be an understatement.

By Sasami's own nature, she was a helper - she always tried to help out everywhere she went, no matter what. From cleaning house to saving time itself, she was there, giving a helping hand. Thus, when she was woken to face the Ohm, she found it her calling to do what she could to help.

Instead, she was told to stay back, that, because she was a child, she shouldn't meddle in the affairs of adults and just be a kid.

So, she tried being a kid. Tried being the keyword here; the second she opted to do that, Hit Girl appeared and more or less told her that she should be out there fighting with the rest.

And thus, her conflict. To turn her back on those who could use her help would be turning her back on who she is and what she's done, yet to turn her back on what's left of her childhood would mean losing out on what was left of it.

Hiding in the Media Library, watching a random anime (which oddly featured a version of her in an outfit too skimpy for a kid), she let out a sigh.

"...I wish I could be like you." Sasami mused, watching the show. "You knew what to do with your life. You wanted to help others. And yet, I can't do that here. Now without making someone angry or protective." She let out a sigh as she sat back and continued watching

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[in-venting.livejournal.com]

"Do you always talk to yourself?" Sherry asked as she stuck her head out of her own media pod. She had decided to watch something fairly mindless to help her do her homework, and though she usually didn't like having noise, it was better than Boon jumping all over her and trying to eat her omnicom.

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Sasami blinked, snapping out of her thoughts when she heard Sherry call out to her. Sticking her own head out, she grinned sheepishly.

"I-I'm sorry... I was just thinking. I guess I didn't realize there were others here!" Sasami said.

[in-venting.livejournal.com]

"Even if you think you're alone, you shouldn't talk to yourself. That just makes people think you're crazy, you know." Sherry raised her eyebrows at the other little girl and sighed. "Don't you think we have enough crazy people on the ship already?"

It was like they were giving her reasons to dislike the rest of the crew right off the bat now.

[saint-sami.livejournal.com]

Sasami huffed, crossing her arms at Sherry.

"Well, excuse me for wanting to do so!" Sasami said before turning her eyes to look away. "...not like I have anyone else to talk to..."

[in-venting.livejournal.com]

It took everything in Sherry to not want to roll her eyes at the other girl's dramatics. Instead, she hit the enter key a few times and frowned at the screen of her media pod.

"I'm here right now, aren't I? You can talk to me." She turned back to her omnicom and started typing quickly.

[saint-sami.livejournal.com]

Sasami... was less than impressed by Sherry's reaction. It seemed like she was almost like Washu - impossible to talk to unless it was something she was interested in. What made her so haughty anyway?

"Why bother? Sounds like you'd ignore me." Sasami said, crossing her arms and looking away.

[in-venting.livejournal.com]

"Just because I'm not looking at you doesn't mean I'm not listening," Sherry replied. "You're worried because you don't know what to do because you're our age? Well, it happens. It isn't a big deal, you just find a way to make yourself useful." She paused in her typing and looked at Sasami. "And if "being useful" means "staying out of the way", then you do that. That's what I do."

She started typing again. "I'm about as normal as you can get, and I know that I don't have anything that makes me stand out one way or another, so I take the classes my mother gives, and the classes the other adults give, and I learn. Maybe when I'm a little older, I'll be more useful. Because none of the adults are going to live forever, and one day, we'll have to step up anyway. So why are you rushing towards something that will happen when it happens?"

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"Because I wanna be ready." Sasami said, looking back at Sherry. "I'm... not normal. I've never been normal. I'm an alien. I'm a princess. I don't know if my sister or my friends are here and... and I can't sit back and let others do something that I could be able to do!"

She let out a sigh. "You may think that sitting back and studying is what you should do, but... I've been through too much to sit back. At the same time? I wish I could do that..."

[hit-girl-mindy.livejournal.com]

And in walked the devil, or at least, the equivalent of such, dripping a little blood on the floor. Hit Girl was beginning to see there might be some merit in getting injuries checked on: certainly fighting a dragon warranted a little bit of assistance. She figured at this point that she really should watch what she did when it came to her body.

"Oi, a little help?" She called, and saw Sasami. "Hey, princess. Know how to bandage a wound?"

[saint-sami.livejournal.com]

Sasami blinked, hearing Hit Girl call out to her. She kinda didn't want to turn and face her, but doing so, she gasped out, pausing her show to run to the girl.

"Wh-what happened?! What did you do?!" she cried out

[hit-girl-mindy.livejournal.com]

"Hey, hey, calm down," Hit Girl said, bothered by the noise. "I fought a dragon in the sensoriums, okay? I told the Overlord I wanted the hardcore and I got it. No need to feel sorry for my dumb ass: the water girl saved me from getting a royal ass kicking. Won though: that was good."

"So...uh, do you have any kind of bandaging? I'm kinda hurting now."

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Sasami got a good look at the wound before wincing at Hit Girl. "Th-that's a bad wound! You need a doctor than just a bandage...!" she said.

She looked around, trying to figure out what to use before sighing and reaching for the obi of her kimono, wrapping it around the girl tightly. "You need to get to a doctor... I-I can get you there..."

[hit-girl-mindy.livejournal.com]

"I don't want a doctor," Hit girl interrupted. "They ask too many damn questions and might want me to take the mask off. Can't do any of that, okay? rather you just try to get it taken care of. You look like the type that might know how, that's all."

She appreciated the using of her own clothes, but wasn't good at showing such gratitude. It was...weird.

"Hey, I meant to ask, princess," she said. "What's your problem with me anyway? You acted like I was the plague when we first met."

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"Couldn't you go without the mask? I'm sure they wouldn't know. You can just tell them something went wrong and you couldn't do anything about it." Sasami said.

She let out a sigh as she heard her question.

"I'm not used to other kids being so... snappy." she said. "The friends I have here were generally kind to me, so... it kinda threw me off. That and... I've been conflicted with what I should do."

[hit-girl-mindy.livejournal.com]

"Not an option," Hit girl replied, grunting a little at the pain. "If people don't like Hit girl, I'd rather it stay that way. She and who I am are different people, and it has to stay that way, even if weird shit happens here all the time."

She shrugged. "New Yorker, comes with the territory. You have to be hard, you can't trust anyone and you have to expect a backstabbing even in a place where it seems like everyone else is just as badly off. But hey...what are you so bothered about?"

[saint-sami.livejournal.com]

"I understand..." Sasami said, nodding. Part of her was curious about who was under the mask, though... Putting that behind her, she moved to sit her in her chair, stopping the anime completely.

"Well... I just don't know what to do here. I want to help everyone, but they want me to be a kid, yet when I try to be a kid..." she said, trailing off to look Hit Girl in the eye.

[carrieswar.livejournal.com]

Jr. had come to the Media Library a lot after his initial discovery. Classics from Lost Jerusalem? Oh yeah. He didn't want to go overboard,of course. But after all he'd been through both before and after waking up on Stacy,it had been good to take the edge off with one of his favorites, Sudden Impact.

Now, though, he was idly browsing to see what else the place had to offer, until he heard the sounds of something else on, as well as a voice. Curious, he followed the sound until he spotted Sasami, and glanced over her shoulder to get a better look at what was on.

"What'cha watching?"

[saint-sami.livejournal.com]

Sasami jumped, being caught off guard by Jr.'s approach. She took a moment to recompose herself.

"O-Oh... sorry, I guess I got caught up in my thoughts." she said, grinning sheepishly. "It's a cartoon... with me, apparently."

[carrieswar.livejournal.com]

"--with you?"

He blinked, that sure was weird. But on the other hand, the only thing that jumped into his mind was:

"Woah, you must be pretty famous, then!"

[saint-sami.livejournal.com]

Sasami laughed sheepishly at Jr.'s assessment.

"I-I don't know if I am, really!" Sasami admitted. "I just found this and i-it happened to have me in it!"

Which made her wonder - was she well-known elsewhere? Or was she used as some sort of example from her universe?

[carrieswar.livejournal.com]

"Well, it sounds like someone thinks you're cool enough to make a cartoon about you."

And that led him to his next statement.

"So really, you shouldn't want to be like something that's already based off of you. There's not really much room for change in that case."

[saint-sami.livejournal.com]

Sasami tilted her head a bit to look at Jr., her eyes blinking in surprise and curiosity.

"You think so? I mean..." Sasami stammered. "I guess I just want to show everyone I can do stuff..."

[carrieswar.livejournal.com]

"What kind of stuff?"

[saint-sami.livejournal.com]

"...like help the adults here." Sasami said. "I'm the Child Liaison for Command and yet... sometimes I wonder if I was given it to let me be. Or maybe I'm just not doing my job..."

[poetrysoldier]

Like Sasami, Ashley came to the Media Library every so often. Like she once told Commander Shepard: she was a decisive person. And it was with that line of thought that she spied Sasami. Feeling a tad concerned of the younger girl, she turned to Sasami quietly.

"You shouldn't let other people dicate how you think and feel, Sasami. Or you okay?"