A Numb Feeling Inside... [Open]

[saint-sami.livejournal.com]

If there was anyway of telling that someone was having a very bad week, it was easy to see it with Sasami. Coming off from her injuries after the battle with the Ohm, she ended up snapping and attacking Evangeline over a massive misunderstanding concerning Negi. Then, when it came to the elections, she tossed her metaphorical hat into the metaphorical ring and it completely backfired on her: meeting one of her opponents, he'd tried to convince her to step down and reading some of the messages on the omnicomms, it seemed like her opponents were trying to tell her to back off as well.

You're too young. You're biting off more than you can chew. Why don't you shadow...?

"Why aren't they giving me a chance?" Sasami muttered to herself. "Why won't they? Is it because I'm a kid? O-Or..." she shook her head as she wandered aimlessly into the Media Library. She half-heartedly waved off a working Vivio as she took a seat and curled herself into a ball.

"...m-maybe I should give up..." Sasami muttered, trying not to cry. As she did, Vivio just stared at the poor girl, both mage and Device uncertain on how to cheer her up.

(OoC: Kinda doubling up here. You can speak to either Vivio or Sasami here if need be. Oh, heck, go for both! Don't matter at all!)

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[pocketloli.livejournal.com]

Rein sensed a disturbance in the Force.

Specifically the Zen of the Media Library as she looked over at Vivio and Sacred Heart as the girl slumped in. "Poor girl," mused Rein. "Let's go hug her."

And Rein floated over to the girl and said, "Honey? Do you need a hug?"

[saint-sami.livejournal.com]

Vivio nodded slightly as she went over to Sasami.

When Sasami heard Rein's voice, she looked up, surprised to see to see the tiny woman there. "Y-You... I..." she shied away a bit before nodding slightly.

Sasami couldn't get another word out before she felt Vivio hug her from the side.

[pocketloli.livejournal.com]

A tiny hug was presented to Sasami as she hugged her gently, her small arms wrapping around her cheek. "Shh, just let it out okay? We'll talk after you do."

Rein was a lot of things; friend, servant, device, Hayate's personal dress up doll, but she was also a big bag of comfort to people. Rein had a soothing effect on friend and foe alike, just because she was adorable. And she cared for people which was a plus.

"What's troubling you?"

[saint-sami.livejournal.com]

At Rein's suggestion, she finally broke down into tears, crying as someone was there to at least reassure her.

After awhile, though, Sasami finally calmed down enough to speak with the two.

"...I wanna be part of that Council thing everyone is talking about. I want to show that I can do something just as well as they can and to make sure everyone has a voice, but... they don't want me. Matt's doing the same thing I am, th-then Mr. Petralli tried to tell me that I shouldn't do this and I snapped at him... th-then what happened with Negi-kun and his friend, and..."

"...sounds like a lot of stuff happened and it's finally hit home..." Vivio said.

[foreseen-future.livejournal.com]

There's an eighteen year old in the media library. She's dressed in shorts, and a tank top, both blue, with her long, luxurious white hair pulled back in a ponytail that bobs when she walks in her flip-flops. She's got Frankenstein tucked under one arm, and a freezie-sweet in her other hand. She'd prepared it especially for a quiet reading of chapter thirteen in the media library.

But something stops her when she hears the musings of two young girls, who she finds herself drawn to. "You OK there, Kiddo?"

[saint-sami.livejournal.com]

Sasami looked up to see the young woman before her. At that point, Vivio stepped aside, hoping maybe she can get through to her.

"I..." Sasami stammered. "...I just don't know if I'm cut out for this..." she said, curling up a bit more.

[crysteel-future.livejournal.com]

"What do you mean?" She moves past Vivio to sit down tailor-style on the floor next to Sasami, setting down Frankenstein and her drink.

[saint-sami.livejournal.com]

"You know those elections? I decided to participate in them and... well... it's like everyone doesn't want me to..." Sasami said. "I... I think that they just don't want me to because I'm a kid..."

She laid her head on her knees and sighed. "I could do this... I really could. Why won't they give me the chance?"

[thirdeyeclosed.livejournal.com]

The library was still a new place for Koishi. Sure, she had been here before, but in her opinion, looking at books was way less interesting than wandering through a giant city, so she hasn't explored it as much. But she did come here occasionally, when she felt bored enough.

Of course, she didn't stay bored for long. After rounding a corner, she noticed her friend curled up and looking quite upset. Koishi's smile faded, and she walked over to the other girl, crouching down a little.

"Sasami? What's wrong?"

[saint-sami.livejournal.com]

Sasami looked up, noticing Koishi in front of her.

"Koishi-chan, I..." Sasami began, trying to keep her composure. "...everything's wrong. I attacked someone when they were trying to help one of my friends and when I decided to enter that Council election, everyone's trying their best to keep me out..."

She let out a sigh and buried her head. "Maybe I should... just give up..."

[thirdeyeclosed.livejournal.com]

"... Why?" Koishi asked. "Just because they're trying to keep you out doesn't mean you should just give up! If anything, you should keep going and prove you can't be pushed around like that!"

[saint-sami.livejournal.com]

"I know, but... it just seems so big..." Sasami said. "...you think I could do it?"

[demon-alessa.livejournal.com]

Alessa had little reason to care or be around most people: the attempt of making her feel alienated on the ship were more or less a push in her already apparent disgust of humanity save for children. Even after the Ohm and her decent workout, the clamor for elections meant nothing to her. She would not be held down and made to take orders like some human filth, certainly not when they gave no reason to deserve any respect from her in the first place. They were fools, and fools could keep the pretense of order all they wanted: she would live how she liked, in this place where there was nothing for her other than confusion and irritation.

Upon wandering the library, she felt the frantic feelings of someone she knew: Sasasmi, it seemed, was troubled. Alessa stopped dead, appearing in front of her and the other girl, Vivio, who was also fairly friendly with her.

"You are troubled," Alessa said. "Why?"

[saint-sami.livejournal.com]

Vivio jumped a bit, startled by Alessa's appearance. Sasami, however, just looked up at her sightly, then looked away.

"Everything's been going wrong..." Sasami said. "...I attacked someone without any real reason to and it seems like everyone doesn't want me to be on that Council..."

[demon-alessa.livejournal.com]

Alessa closed her eyes, and the room got a little darker and colder for a moment before Alessa opened her eyes again. She WAS in her human form, but learning this had caused a small fluctuation in her normally emotionless demeanor, so she was in her demon face now.

"Who is this person you attacked for no reason? That hardly sounds like your kind of action. And what's this about people not wanting you to be in Council? Aren't you qualified for that position?"

[saint-sami.livejournal.com]

"It was a girl named Evangeline. One of Negi's friends. I saw them doing something and Negi was being hurt... but, I ended up finding out she was helping him..." Sasami said.

"...and I thought I was. I really did, and now... I'm not sure."

[chosenlightchld.livejournal.com]

Hikari blinked as she moved into the media library. Her arm still wasn't fully healed yet, and it was a little bit annoying, but at least once it was done she'd be able to start training and using her new found Pactio powers that Negi had given her.

"Hi Vivio!" she said, smiling a bit. Then she noticed Sasami sitting there. "Sasami-chan, what's wrong?"

[saint-sami.livejournal.com]

"Hi, Hikari-chan!" Vivio replied, acknowledging the newcomer.

Sasami looked up at Hikari, then wiped her eyes a bit, trying to keep back a few tears.

"Hikari-chan, I... am I worth all this trouble?" Sasami asked

[chosenlightchld.livejournal.com]

Hikari blinked, moving over to Sasami and kneeling down, putting a hand on her shoulder. "Of course you are. What's wrong?"

[governorkang]

Normally, Kang wouldn't have spared more than a curious glance at the young girl curled up in the chair. She was clearly upset, and he wasn't all that comfortable with dealing with children of other races.

But, this particular girl he recognized from his omnicomm, running for Council. What was her name again? Sasami? It couldn't hurt to talk to the girl, since she was running for the same position that he was.

He hesitated for a moment, then approached her, careful to try and keep from looking too intimidating, "...are you alright?"

[saint-sami.livejournal.com]

Sasami looked up... and let out a surprising yelp as she saw Kang before her. She let her surprise fade, though, as she realized that she was being asked if she was okay.

"...I don't know if I am... I ended up attacking someone because I thought they were hurting a friend of mine when they were helping him. And... I keep having second thoughts about the elections... when one says they're doing the same thing I am and another says I should back off a bit, I..."

[governorkang]

Kang's good wing rustled slightly; he'd expected that reaction, so he wasn't offended.

He knelt down so that he was at eye level with Sasami, resting most of his weight on his tail. He wasn't quite sure how he was supposed to handle this situation, but he figured treating her more like an adult wouldn't hurt, "Sounds like you're having a tough day."

One thing at a time, though. "This person you attacked, and your friend, how did they react?"

[char-char-char.livejournal.com]

Char had come here to look for data files on his home dimension, but (after a brief flashback-induced double-take at her teal pigtails) approaches Sasami.

"Say, you were one of the people running for a Councilor position, right?" he asks.

[saint-sami.livejournal.com]

"Huh?" Sasami uttered, looking up at the blond-haired man, then nodded.

"Yes, I am. Why do you ask?" she said, tilting her head in confusion.

[char-char-char.livejournal.com]

"I wanted to make sure of something that I didn't want to ask over the Omnicomm, and as long as we've run into each other..."

Char looks serious. "You're running of your own free will, right? No one's putting you up to this?"