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She went straight to the Sensoriums. Her feelings were all over the place, and she had to get away from people right now. She remembered all too well what happened to Alex when he lost Luna: she knew she had to find a way to take her aggression out. There was pain and self loathing and unspeakable things she was sorting through, but right now it was nothing but anger she was feeding on. She closed her eyes when she entered, concentrating on the enemies she;s fought while she'd been on the ship.

The Terminators. The T-Rex. The Nightmare King's monster minions. The traps Hal had laid for them. They came one at a time but Katara was ready, steeling herself to calmly maneuver out of the traps, to find a way to take down the terminator most efficiently, and those alone took more than a few hours. It was when she got to the nightmare King's minions, however, that Katara stopped being cautious. Now she ripped into them, stabbing at them with ice shards and freezing them on the spot before blowing through them, and slowly her determined face gave away to that of rage. As she started to remember their fights, their hugs, their talks, she switched to the Bene Gesserit fighting style, her hits were starting to get more serious, leaving many injured in her wake, though she received a few cuts herself. When she was done an hour later, it faded, all of it, and she was left in water, where she had heard Sokka once talk to Toph about how she'd been like a mother to her, and she couldn't stand it anymore. She let out a scream, primal and pained.

"WHY?! WHY BRING HIM HERE JUST TO TAKE HIM AWAY?! ALL THIS TIME, JUST TO TAKE HIM AND NOT HAVE AANG HERE AND MAKE ZUKO FORGET WHAT WE ALL DID?? WHAT DO YOU WANT FROM ME!?"

And she dissolved into tears here, the sun sinking into the clouds and leaving a dark, lonely pond.

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Katara giggled. "I'm guessing they cause you headaches in your world too, huh?"

"Too often," Ren groaned. "My life made a lot more sense before I met them." It also had a lot less purpose, but he didn't like admitting that to himself, let alone to someone he'd just met.

Katara, who had no idea about that, would be just as happy to point it out in a shocking similarity. "Sometimes that lack of logic is a good thing though. My life made sense before I met a certain person, but it was more harsh than anything. A person who acts like that usually needs someone to bring them down to earth, but what they can accomplish is equal to the trouble they put you through."

Katara learned that a LONG time ago.

"It did make things easier," Ren had to admit. Mostly because it was easier to win when he had someone on his side, but Shinji had also been determined to shoulder other people's burdens, no matter how much it hurt him. Ren had been equally stubborn about keeping his burden his own, but when someone was trying to help you carry it...it did feel lighter sometimes.

"Well in my case, he was willing to help anyone, but he was also very, very powerful. In a way, I think it was destiny that we would all meet at the time that we did. All of us in our group, we all had our reason for joining together, and our own secret pain. That, I think, was something that kept us and all of our personalities together. It made us function we with each other."

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That sounded a lot like what Shinji had said about Odin making the timeline repeat itself. Everything had happened exactly the same, except that Shinji had days where he remembered everything that had happened before.

"Maybe there is something that draws us together," Ren admitted. "But I'm not so sure it's destiny."

Katara shrugged. "It's different for everyone. The important thing is not to fell tied to destiny but to work within it, making the choices you feel are right. With the person I met, everything just seemed to fall into place, but the road to where we needed to get was always with peril."

"If that's the path that worked for you, then good," Ren answered. He was always going to resist against it, personally; mostly because he didn't like anyone telling him what to do.

"My path is mine," she said. "I think destiny played a part, but the choices I made were mine and no one else's. It just seems destiny laid a foundation in a way: everything, at times, just seemed to fall in place. Hardships came, but we persevered."

Ren nodded. That, in a way, was reassuring. That someone wasn't going to let themselves be at the whim of fate.

"Then you're going to be able to get through this," he pointed out. "No matter what's thrown your way."

"I have to," Katara said. "The ship isn't going to wait for me to accept what's going on, I have to adapt when I can. If I don't...I could lose people and be made unable to function on my own. I have to find a way to keep going."

"Good," Ren answered. "Then you know better than to fall. You've got the drive to keep going."

"Always," Katara said boldly. "I'll do whatever I can to make sure I keep that going."

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