trans_9 | Free Hugs, anyone~?

It was always a hard look to see one someone's face, especially someone as full of life as Dean normally was. Kaylee chewed on the inside of her lip for all of three seconds before she was up off the bench and wrapping her arms around Dean.

Yeah, those people without a choice in the hugging? You're one of them, Dean.

Dean tensed for a split second, and then relaxed against her. He tried to wrap his arms around her back, and he buried his face into the crook of her neck. He was already shaky, and tears were slowly forming in his eyes.

Right now, he wasn't going to say something about hugs or how corny they were, because clearly he needed this.

Oh, she would be having a talk with Castiel about this later. Kaylee held Dean tight, smoothing down his hair with one hand, planting a comforting kiss or two just next to his ear.

She wasn't going to ask him to talk about it if he didn't want to, even with her curiosities about the conversation. For now, hugs and comfort would have to do.

He broke down a little more at the comforting contact, letting go for a moment. Dean would get himself back to together to talk in a moment. He wanted to tell her, at least some of it. As crazy as it all was, he wanted to trust her with it. But he needed a little to collect himself from how shattered he was about his and his brother's future.

Kaylee was careful to let him take his time. If he needed to cry she had a shoulder to offer, and when he was ready to talk she would be ready to listen.

Dean finally wiped his eyes, rubbing the tears away. He then sighed, and whispered, "Thanks." He looked around, and managed to snag a napkin to deal with his sniffling nose from crying. His green eyes were looking a bit red as well.

"Um, listen. Had some news from Cas, he's uh from our future. Mine and Sam's, told us some things about it. And it gets pretty bad, about as bad as it could get. There's... ah shit, there's a lot going on that I haven't said. Or there was before we lost our world."

"Anytime," she replied, rubbing his arm slowly while he straightened himself out.

"Bad as it could get don't mean there ain't more to it than you know." She cracked a small smile as he started explaining. "Dean, if you'd've told me everythin', I'd be wonderin' how you forgot where a handprint on your shoulder came from," she replied. "Plenty of things neither of us have shared, just how it goes, but if you wanna tell then there's probly a better place than the Mess Hall for it." A nod back to the door. "C'mon, I can leave the post for a little while."

He gave a tiny grateful smile at that.

"Yeah, for starters? Cas' the reason behind that handprint."

Dean was glad she hadn't pressed him for details, just giving him space until he could say something.

"The Serenity then?"

"Duly noted."

She nodded, before looping her arm through his and tugging him toward the door. "Just Serenity, no the, but she'll be as snug a place as any for a good talk." So long as Simon didn't walk in. Kaylee wasn't sure she was ready for that encounter yet.

"Serenity then, and yeah more space than my baby." That and he was starting to like the ship and her own quirks. Dean's free hand reached to touch hers by his arm as they walked along.

Luckily, the walk down to the cargo bay wasn't all that long, and Serenity was fairly easy to get to. Kaylee left Dean up in the ship's kitchen momentarily while she checked to make sure no one else ~~Simon~~ was going to interrupt. Then it was back to the kitchen, where she seated herself in one of the chairs at the table and prepared herself to listen.

Dean flopped into one of the chairs, his elbows leaning on the table before him. He sighed again before speaking.

"All right, told you a little about the hunting but there's more. A lot more. First of all, Sammy and I were still hunting but we had something bigger going on. The Apocalypse. As in the Biblical one, Revelations, the Four Horseman, ultimate showdown between Lucifer and Michael. And my brother and I were right in the middle of it. Hell damn angels and demons were wanting us to freaking star in it because of who we are."

Kaylee nodded along with the first part. Some things Dean had mentioned, others Sam had mentioned, but she was fairly smart. Smart enough to add a couple things together, at least.

"And you didn't want any part."

"Hell no. For one thing, angels don't have physical bodies. Neither do demons. They both have to possess a human. But angels need permission, and they have one true vessel. Michael was calling dibs on my ass, but if we agreed, at least half the earth would be wiped out from the fight."

Kaylee frowned. The entire situation already sounded like something she'd never want to see anyone involved in. "No other way around, by the sound of it..."

"According to Cas, we eventually found a way. But it meant Sam taking Lucifer with him back to the son of bitch's hellcage."

He shook his head, and wiped a hand over his face, "If that's our damn future, then to hell with it. Tired of all of it. No way I'm going to lose my brother."

"Now, look." This was making him too upset, and when people were upset they just tended to make it worse on themselves. "You ain't gonna lose Sam, alright? Castiel's from your future, maybe, but that don't mean there ain't a future of some kind past him, right? So there's no sayin' that things don't straighten out. Cas just happened to see the worst of it."

And Dean had a bad habit of taking blame and guilt on himself too.

"Cas was saying it was our last and only chance. I... I'd sooner say yes myself than let that happen to my brother. And Cas... he's human now. No more mojo, and he thought he was dead at first." Fear gripped as he realized what that would mean. Sam gone, Cas gone. If Bobby was gone too, he'd be all alone. Everybody would have left him, just as he always feared the most.

"Just 'cause that's what he said don't mean that somethin' else didn't come up after the fact, right?" Kaylee leaned forward, and her fingers curled over Dean's hand. "Things don't always go as planned, it's true, but sometimes that other route can lead to better solutions. It's hard to tell what's 'round the corner when you ain't been there yet."

He glanced down at her hand, and squeezed it back. Accepting the touch of comfort and support.

"Yeah, maybe. But it still means I either lose my brother to Lucifer, or to Hell."

Dean paused and then admitted, "I know what it's like down there... Made a deal once to save my brother's life. Cas was the angel to yank me back eventually."

He just wasn't getting it, was he? Kaylee couldn't help giving the tiniest of sighs, one she normally might have saved for Jayne or Simon. Guys and their thick skulls.

"Like I said, there might be a way to get him back, and it might not even present itself til later on, but between you 'n Sam? I doubt there's a power in the 'verse could keep you two from not findin' a way to help each other."

Nope, and he's stubborn too which doesn't help at all.

"That would be God, and he doesn't seem to be answering his voicemail."

He sighed, "Just keep thinking the Ohm did us a favor. Even though I didn't want our world destroyed either, but we're free from all of it now."

Just like having Jayne here, man, minus half the crude comments.

"I'm not sayin' it's gonna be an easy way, in any form of the word--"

She cut off, and just flat out stared at him. Better that the Ohm took things out? Kaylee leaned back, eyebrows raised. "You can't say you're glad to see it gone just 'cause of a speed bump. That's just...zao gao. Na mei guan xi, why don't we just be glad everybody's world's gone, because lord knows the troubles they'd just bring along." Ticked? Maybe a little.

[[ OoC Translation: Damn it. If that's the case, ]]

Only because he filters himself a little around her. Usually. If it was him and his brother, or other hunters, he'd be even cruder.

Dean started to answer and then paused for a moment, "I'm not glad those six billion are gone, hell I spent my entire life trying to save people. And it didn't even mean anything. Supposed to save the world, and screwed that up before it got iced. But it meant destiny was just a bunch of bullshit too."

He lowered his head to the table for a moment, and rubbed the back of his neck nervously.

"I just wanted to explain some things to you because I... I trust you, and thought you should know what to expect. I mean, shit, I'm not perfect, not even close. Just trying."

"I know that. But you can't just say you're glad for somethin' bad to have happened just to save yourself the trouble of not knowin' how somethin's gonna end. You've got plenty of trust in Sam and Cas, Dean. Why not have a little in yourself?"

Kaylee looked at him thoughtfully.

"'M glad you've shared with me, and I hope you'll continue doin' so, but you can't just keep on bein' so hard on yourself for somethin' you ain't even seen for yourself yet. Things're different from others' eyes. Maybe you then'll see somethin' Cas didn't, y'know?"

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