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For the most part, things had been very quiet for Sasami. Despite the odd incidents between that dragon creature and the gravity cutting out, it seems a bit worrisome not to have something exciting happen. At this point, as Sasami looked out to the Bleed, she made probably the most duh-inspiring statement ever.

"I miss everyone." Sasami said to herself. She had allowed Ryo-Ohki to wander off and she was even regretting not having her company. Even though she had the palace, even though she had met some of the kids, no one really came to visit her.

More maybe it was because she was still reeling from Karen's reaction. Just because she was an alien didn't mean she should be normal. Maybe that's why no one was around or asking about her. Maybe they figured that, because she was an alien, she could take care of herself...

As she curled herself up on the chair, she wished Paula or maybe Hikari would show up. They were nice...

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"Loneliness and being alone are not quite the same thing," Alessa said, though she wasn;t exactly saying she had no intenbtion of not being friends with Sasimi. The truth was, she was caught off guard by the question.

"But I am not suggesting I am saying no," Alessa said. "Just realize being friends with me might make others not like you. That's a risk you take."

The look in her eyes startled Alessa. No one looked at her like that really, not even Shadow.

"...if they don't like me because of who I make friends with, then they're being dumb." Sasami said. It was true in her mind, though - did it have to matter who the person was on the outside if you could bring the person inside out?

"Well... what do you say?" she asked, taking no heed to Alessa's startled look.

Sound logic: in fact, the type of logic she herself was saying just a moment ago. Alessa was sure that her warning would have made the girl pause at least, consider whta she was doing. Instead, the girl seemed to already be strong in her convictions. She like that.

"I would be stupid to say no," Alessa said, though she was not quite ready to give a happy smile, since those kind of smiles weren't the type she usually gave, so she simply looked less stern. "Thank you, Sasami. Is there anything you're curious about, concerning myself or the ship?"

If Sasami didn't have a bit more self-control, she would have tackled and hugged Alessa right there. Instead, she restrained herself, only making the motion of wanting to reach out to Alessa and pulling herself back, her cheeks turning red.

"S-Sorry...! I guess I got a bit carried away." Sasami said. "Though... if you don't mind me asking... what are you?" Alessa's earlier switch was enough to tell her she wasn't a normal kid herself. She just wanted to know what she was exactly.

Alessa was not sure about the gesture that Sasami was trying to show. For a moment, she almsot thought that the girl was trying to hug her, but that was just crazy. No one in their right mind would want to do that after seeing her true form, she was sure of that.

"I'm not exactly sure how, but its all right," Alessa said, still having no idea what sasmi had been trying to do. "But since you asked: I'm a demon. That means I have a way of showing humans scary things that they don't want to see. Before I was brought here, I had defeated these humans who had hurt a little girl pretty badly. I resemble that little girl when I look human. Her name is the one I took: Alessa."

She was a demon? Sasami couldn't help but blink in surprise. She was used to what she'd seen in books on Earth, not something like this.

"Wow... I could see why people would be hesitant in wanting to be friends with you." Sasami said. "But, you don't have to worry about that now...!"

NOW she reached over and hugged Alessa. A simple gesture just to show she meant no harm. Though the way Alessa had been acting, she was slightly afraid something would happen to her because of it... like melt.

"It's always something with humans," Alessa said. "You're nice enough to tell them what you are, and the first thing they do is assume that you're out specifically to get them, like they're so important. It's a good thing we're so thick skinned."

While she was going to nod acknowledgment at what the girl had said, she did that attempt again, except she wound up doing THAT, which completely took Alessa by surprise. What in the hell, didn't she know what a demon was, and you didn't go off hugging them like that?! She was so surprised that her body had a reaction that shouldn't have ever had: her skin actually flushed, and turned RED, which was insane on the pale skinned demon.

She hurriedly broke from the hug, looking a little awed. "Warn me the next time you that. It was...unexpected."

Sasami pulled back as Alessa broke the hug. She didn't think she'd do that.

"I-I'm sorry! I didn't think...! I... I'm sorry..." she said, shrinking back.

Oh, great - she offended a new friend a few moments after becoming her friend. Real smooth!

Alessa, too, was going to have to learn to let some things go. No one had ever really asked to be her friend before, she shouldn't spoil it by backing away in such a cowardly fashion.

"You don't have to apologize," Alessa said, trying to look calmer. "I'm...just not used to anyone wanting to touch me voluntarily. It doesn't really happen often. I'm not bothered by you."

She did her best to hide the redness in her face though. FREAKY. Not even Shadow had ever been able to do that. Of course, she also tended to dominate their...whatever it was.

"But, still, I did that without asking and..." Sasami countered. She still felt horrible about doing that, but at least Alessa was okay.

A smile slowly crept on her face as she held out a hand towards Alessa, as if she was wanting her to hold on or something. She shook her head to try to banish away her thoughts.

"I should have asked you in the first place, but I just wanted to show you weren't alone anymore. You probably haven't been and you just don't see it. I really do want to be your friend and... I just don't want anyone else to be alone."

"Yes, but friends don't ave to ask each other about those kinds of things," Alessa said, still reeling from the hug and the brazen courage Sasami had in giving her one. Without realizing it, that sort of thing actually earned her quiet respect, but she would never tell her that unless she was sure it would never get around.

Alessa watched the hand, and slowly gave her her own. It was strange, to seem this vulnerable and have it be okay so long as no one else was watching. She didn't mind the smile terribly though: only one other person had smiled at her that way, and it was Vivio, Nanoha's daughter, but Sasami was the first to go out of her way.

Alessa gave her a strange look. "Demons don't really get lonely. They have a goal, and when they know it, they work towards it. That is their purpose, and so it is what they strive for and nothing else. But...I'm here, in a place that is not my world, so I really have no goal to work for. So in a way, maybe you're right: I have been feeling strange, like I don;t belong here."

As Alessa gave her her hand, Sasami gave it a slight squeeze, as if to comfort her.

"I know how you feel. A lot of the people here are... special. They have something that could help everyone. Despite what I am, I'm still a child. I don't have anything that could help anyone. Even the other kids have something... I just feel helpless."

She let out a sigh before looking at Alessa again.

"But, maybe I can do something, somehow... even if it's to make someone feel like they belong. It may not be much but... it's better than nothing."

"If you were brought here, it was because you were necessary," Alessa replied, squeezing back the hand of the girl. "You cannot assume that just because your strength isn't apparent that you will not be necessary later, or that you cannot find a way to change your circumstances. There are people here who will protect you until the time you can find what your strength is. But if you start to doubt you can do anything, there will be little that anyone can do. The voices of doubt and self pity are a far greater opponent than anything physical."

Alessa gave the girl a searching look. "That is true. A sense of belonging is exactly what people on this ship need. If they do not have that, then they are going to be destroyed. I have always thought that."

Sasami listened to what Alessa had to say. She was right - if she started doubting herself now, then she'd be no help to everyone. That was something she had to fix as soon as possible... if she wasn't doing it now and she wasn't realizing it.

"Well... it always takes that first step for things to change, right?" Sasami said. She let out a giggle as she still held on to Alessa's hand. "I think this is that step. That there's someone willing to stand by you, no matter what..."

She blushed a bit after realizing what she said.

"That was... kinda sappy, wasn't it?"

"Of course it takes a step," Alessa replied. "You can't think that by staying here by yourself you're going to make any change. People may not like me, but no one can say I haven't been an asset to the crew, between slaying zombies and evil toy machines to fighting against the Nightmare King monsters at personal cost to myself. You don't inspire the crew without strength behind it."

The rest of the speech, however, was a bit of a...yeah.

"A bit." Alessa shook her head, but this time, she did actually smile. "From anyone else, it would have been highly annoying. But you are finding your voice. It's a start."

Sasami chuckled a bit, shrugging as she continued blushing. "Well..."

She slowly pulled her hand away from Alessa's, pulling her hands behind her. "I'll work on it. I'm going to need to someday."

"...thank you for listening to me, Alessa. And for being my friend. If there is anything I can do for you, please, tell me. Especially after what I did..."

Alessa snickered. "Yes you will, but there are more than enough ways to do that. Trust me, you will find them."

Alessa looked amused at the idea of someone like Sasami being able to help her, but one never knew: even Alessa couldn't predict the future.

"I'll keep that in mind then, but just remember its not the best thing to owe a demon a favor."

And really, no one needed to know it, but she didn't mind the hug that much.

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