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Of all the inane and stupid items to come across in her wanderings...

It stood about chest high on her with little grips on either side and buttons at it's base with familiar faces on it. Tentatively she pushed one of the buttons and sure enough a little doll popped out with her face.

It was far more beautiful a face then she remembered, but then again the game had been designed by people who were loyal to the Fire Nation. And there was no greater hero to the Fire Nation then their princess...except of course the Fire Lord.

Another button press brought her a doll of her brother and she placed them in the pegs on top of the small tower. Their feet clicked into place perfectly. It was like not a day had passed.

With a sullen and half hearted smile she tapped the button once, twice, three times watching the little doll punch her brother in the face. It was oddly soothing.

But how to get it back to the air temple from the city?

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Azula looked curiously, "Still? Then can you really say you've done everything you can? Has there never been a case where it would have benefited the mission?"

"Somehow I never had to," Kaya said. "Every mission is different. And the thing is, there are several ways I know to kill someone. That's the scary part. I don't want to be someone who will kill at the drop of a hat. but I have killed Ohm before. I'm not sure what that makes me."

"It makes you incomplete as a warrior." Azula stated as if it were obvious. "If you're going to act like a solider then you should be the best one you can and that means having no qualms about torture or killing an enemy." So sayth the Fire Nation.

Kaya sighed. "I don't kill unless I have to, and so far, I haven't had no choice yet. Missions can't just have impromptu killing: they need to be thought out and precise. If someone, for instance, was going to kill you in cold blood, I would kill them first."

And you can just forget torture. She hoped.

"If that's true then the time will come, however if the opportunity was there and it actually would have helped and you didn't do it? You may have made things more difficult for everyone. War is about sacrifice. The important thing is making sure your enemy sacrifices more then you have to."

And as far as she was concerned? Kaya might be better off not saving her life. But if that's what she wanted Azula wouldn't stop her.

"No," Kaya said, looking serious. "If it came to that, I would do what I have to do. I've done my best to help the crew in anyway that I can. If there is someone intending to hurt the crew and mean us harm, then I'll do what needs to be done. I won't allow anyone to hurt people her and put us in danger."

If Sheeana was still here, well, she would say that was progress.

Azula however didn't seem so sure. "We'll see. It shouldn't always be something you save for a final option. This ship is full of too many bleeding hearts at times. And showing restraint never won a war." And her education on the wars of their world was very complete.

"Like I said, its not something I'm going to jump at the chance to do. My first teacher on the ship thought a lot like you. At first I wouldn't even consider it, but gradually, I began to see how it might be necessary. I guess in something like that, you would know better, but we aren't alike, obviously."

"Much to my eternal disappointment." Azula remarked dryly.

"If only the ship acted like you, things would be so much easier," Kaya said just as dryly, with the hint of a smile.

"Don't tempt me with a world I can't have." Azula sighed trying to imagine having such power at her fingertips. Things would be VERY different.

"Well if you don't want a world like that, try worrying about the world we have now," Kaya said. "It's a much bigger fixer upper. Besides, I thought you preferred making things happen in your favor rather than just having them that way?"

"You do like to think you know me so well." Azula admonished in her "talking down to peasants" voice.

"I've heard enough stories," Kaya said. "If I'm wrong though, you can tell me."

She rolled her eyes "I have told you. You just bicker with me like a child." She reminded the darker skinned girl.

"Trust me, the last thing you sound like is an adult," Kaya was just as quick to point out. "Every time we have a conversation you need to laden it with put downs and pessimism. It makes it just as infuriating."

"Well you shouldn't make it so easy then." Azula admonished sounding like a exasperated teacher with a slow student. "I have very little restraint right now." Which was one of her biggest frustrations with herself.

"In case you haven't noticed, I'm not exactly at my best these days either," Kaya said. "You can only want the best for someone who seems to openly detest you so much before you get exasperated. and its not like it'll change either of our circumstances in the long run."

Azula scoffed, "I hope you're not blaming me for the fact that you're depressed and in denial."

"No, I blame you for being a generally depressing person in general. Believe it or not, I'm not depressed. I'm just pensive, I guess. It's what happens when you actually pay attention on the ship and are invested in what happens in it."

"That would be the denial part." Azula accused in a barely interested voice letting Kaya know that she didn't believe Kaya. After all she may be insane but that didn't mean she wasn't observant.

"I don't deny anything," Kaya said flatly. "No matter what's happening with me, there are more important things than how I feel about things that happen every single time. The war continues, plans keep happening. I just ahve to make sure I'm a part of it and I'm doing all I can."

"The war keeps happening and you keep losing friends." Azula mused idly, "You go on missions, do all you can and have almost no real effect on the outcome. When was the last time anything you did really was important in the grand scheme of the war?"

"When we discovered the treachery of the Daligig," Kaya said. "The truth is, this is a lot bigger than anyone can imagine: even in our world, something that blows up worlds endangers everything and everyone. Our first instinct is to fight against it. Am I frustrated at how some things are? Of course: there's still much we don't know. But I still think,, the more we learn and the farther down the hole we go, the sooner we can get to the bottom of the real reason for this war. But something this massive won't happen overnight because of the extent of what we have to learn."

"But still you would think that someone with your...significant talents..." that was Azula being nice "Would feel as though her actions were having a more profound effect. I could of course be wrong, rare as that is. But from what I've seen you're about as important to the mission as every other pawn around. Just another warm body with powers to throw into a mission clutter things up."

Not that Azula was trying to be mean, she really wasn't...for a change.