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Of all the inane and stupid items to come across in her wanderings...

It stood about chest high on her with little grips on either side and buttons at it's base with familiar faces on it. Tentatively she pushed one of the buttons and sure enough a little doll popped out with her face.

It was far more beautiful a face then she remembered, but then again the game had been designed by people who were loyal to the Fire Nation. And there was no greater hero to the Fire Nation then their princess...except of course the Fire Lord.

Another button press brought her a doll of her brother and she placed them in the pegs on top of the small tower. Their feet clicked into place perfectly. It was like not a day had passed.

With a sullen and half hearted smile she tapped the button once, twice, three times watching the little doll punch her brother in the face. It was oddly soothing.

But how to get it back to the air temple from the city?

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"No, I blame you for being a generally depressing person in general. Believe it or not, I'm not depressed. I'm just pensive, I guess. It's what happens when you actually pay attention on the ship and are invested in what happens in it."

"That would be the denial part." Azula accused in a barely interested voice letting Kaya know that she didn't believe Kaya. After all she may be insane but that didn't mean she wasn't observant.

"I don't deny anything," Kaya said flatly. "No matter what's happening with me, there are more important things than how I feel about things that happen every single time. The war continues, plans keep happening. I just ahve to make sure I'm a part of it and I'm doing all I can."

"The war keeps happening and you keep losing friends." Azula mused idly, "You go on missions, do all you can and have almost no real effect on the outcome. When was the last time anything you did really was important in the grand scheme of the war?"

"When we discovered the treachery of the Daligig," Kaya said. "The truth is, this is a lot bigger than anyone can imagine: even in our world, something that blows up worlds endangers everything and everyone. Our first instinct is to fight against it. Am I frustrated at how some things are? Of course: there's still much we don't know. But I still think,, the more we learn and the farther down the hole we go, the sooner we can get to the bottom of the real reason for this war. But something this massive won't happen overnight because of the extent of what we have to learn."

"But still you would think that someone with your...significant talents..." that was Azula being nice "Would feel as though her actions were having a more profound effect. I could of course be wrong, rare as that is. But from what I've seen you're about as important to the mission as every other pawn around. Just another warm body with powers to throw into a mission clutter things up."

Not that Azula was trying to be mean, she really wasn't...for a change.

"I do what I can, and that's all I can do," Kaya said, although even she had an air of uncertainty there. "I can heal, I can fight, but I'm not the one in charge. I've helped try to train people, I try to follow the chain of command. It's what expected of anyone, unless I have to divert from the plan."

She could see she was just being Azula. Granted, it still meant she was boastful and arrogant, but she was attempting not to be. Progress?

"You're a grunt." Azula spoke like she was correcting a slow student. "Not even a footnote in the history books. Just one of hundreds. The only people that will remember you are the ones you directly interact with..." a pause "And sometimes not even then."

She was either referring to Stacy's habit of messing with people's memories, or she was being very cruel. One could hardly say.

"Don't you long for more?"

"That's as much as you know. Don't go saying things like that just based on what you think you know. I'm as a part of this ship as anyone, and when I have a job to do, I'll do it. I still have my own mind, and I'll still come up with an alternate plan if need be. Yes, I do follow order much of the time, but if you haven't noticed? People on the ship need to see a little bit of order before they can trust anything."

She was going with very cruel. It's not like Azula cared whether or not her memories were erased anyway, right?

"There are a lot of things I long for, Azula. But so long as I'm only given a ship we don't know all the answers to and a war where we might be being played, priorities come first."

Not that she didn't indulge every once and awhile.

"Seems I've touched a nerve." Azula mused with feigned disinterest.

"But do you really think playing at "order" and what our priorities should be are the same?"

"Believe what you want," Kaya said, even if what Azula said wasn't completely false.

"They work as long as they have to work," Kaya said, and there was a distinct air of rebellion here. "In other words, people need to remain with cool heads, so that's what we do. But there always wiggle room for something different to happen. One never knows."

In other words, Kaya, thanks to Sheena, knew the importance of making some things work in your favor.

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