Out of credits, Game Over. [Open - During Shore Leave]

[expendable-mind.livejournal.com]

The Shodan incident had left more than a foul memory, in fact, it was so bad that the details were hazy.

But he knew he'd gone rogue, and he knew that he caused a lot of damage... and hurt people he cared about. There was no excuse, this was were he belonged. That however didn't make it any more depressing. He'd missed the new crew members, and he would miss much of the going ons but Splicer was used to being alone...

He had his team back after all, even if they were back at home. For now, he'd simply sit there, slumped against the cell wall and think of the thing's he'd done.

Man... this is the shit that the other Spectres got killed for... way to lose it cowboy...

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[expendable-mind.livejournal.com]

As much as he hated talking about himself, he didn't really have a way to dodge the query this time. What else did he really have to do? Count the tiles on the cell?

"What exactly would you want to know? I mean... the list is rather extensive." And not necessarily a pleasant one at some points.

[gunspluscells.livejournal.com]

"I'm not looking for a novel, Splicer. I'm just curious about why you got like that. After I got away from when you were having your..."

Aya was hesitant to use 'crazy phrase' even though that was the first thing that came to mind.

"... Period of instability." she said after a moment. "Just for my reference, so I know how to get you back in case it happens again."

[expendable-mind.livejournal.com]

Oh her first thought was rather accurate technically.

Spicer let out a heavy sigh and slumped back against the wall.

"You sure ya don' want a novel? Cause that question." he joked, again halfhearted.

"Short version, if I don't have my mental dampeners I can't keep myself in check.... If those mental dampeners are taken away... I can get volatile. So that coupled with me being made to believe my team had been killed by the AI that controls the ship... well, you saw the results. I don' gotta get into those details."

[gunspluscells.livejournal.com]

"Hm."

Aya was silent as she digested all of this. It looked and sounded pretty bad on the whole. Her eyes looked straight to the floor. They were a lot closer to each other than she thought. It was strange and comforting, paradoxically.

"The other thing that I wondered is why you let me go. You were pretty gone but..."

[expendable-mind.livejournal.com]

"There's... certain things... that I retain during those moments. People I care about usually trigger natural stops... It won't help the way the self control does but... I guess it's like a suppressor on a gun."

She could take it how she wished... Splicer wouldn't say it straight out. Sometimes all the time it was hard for him to say anything of the sort outright.

[gunspluscells.livejournal.com]

"I didn't know you cared that much." she teased, finally looking up and looking through the bars to address Splicer directly.

"But yeah, that's this checkup over."

Aya didn't get up to leave though.

"It's a while until they send people down. I haven't got anything else to do. I'll stick around here if you want but only if you want. If you'd rather have your peace, I'll scram."

[expendable-mind.livejournal.com]

Kudos to Aya for leaving him speechless, if for only a few moments before he came back to.

he smiled, a genuine smiled and let out a very light chuckle as he shook his head, running a hand through his hair before looking at her.

"Man, I think I'll be getting enough alone time... I think... Naw, I rather you stay if you can stand me." he added with a playful grin.

[gunspluscells.livejournal.com]

"You make it sound like a chore, and it never really is. You helped me out when I was out of hope. I gotta return back the favour, somehow..."

She shrugged and settled on the floor crosslegged.

"Somewhere. It doesn't matter. No matter what you say. I owe ya one."

[expendable-mind.livejournal.com]

"Well it can be hard sometimes!" he joked before he smiled at her, scooting over against the part of the wall she was sitting at.

"There's nothing to be repaid tho. I'm more than happy t' keep bringing you hope, and anything else you might need... I dunno, there's just something about you..." he paused, and gave a light chuckle.

"I think I'll leave it at that so I don't lose this amazingly pleasant company." Of course he was teasing, he was trying to get back into the flow of things and Aya made it easier for him.