Stargazing and thinking

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Feldt couldn't stand being around a lot of people for very long. The crew of the Ptolemy was a very tight knight crew and they were pretty much the only family that Feldt had ever known. There were a lot of other people in this place and she didn't like it. She couldn't wander around the City without feeling uncomfortable or like she was being watched. The hangar was a nice place for her to go to, since she grew up around the Gundams and she knew how to repair them. She was also more comfortable around the machines than she was other people.

Still, going to the hangar presented other dangers. There were a lot of other mobile suits around and the other pilots didn't like Celestial Being that much, rather, they didn't like the ideals of Celestial Being. She had grown up with them and the rules of secrecy. She had broke them once to tell Lockon about her parents and how they had died, but she hasn't done it again.

Everyone she had talked to here had good points. It may be against Celestial Being's ideals to fight in a war, but they were fighting to survive here. The world that they were trying to change was no longer around. She wasn't sure if she should be helping the other pilots out, she was a skilled CIC officer and could coordinate the mobile suits in battle, but she didn't know if Tieria would let her. She wasn't going to go against the Meister's orders, after all, he was the only one with a connection to Veda.

She found her way to the Spacewalk and could only stare. It was like the viewing deck on the Ptolemy. It reminded her of what she had lost and as she gazed out at the stars moving past, she could feel a tear falling down her face. She wiped it away and shook her head. She needed to think about what she was going to do here, not what had gone on in the past.

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She didn't know that about him. She looked over at the Meister for a moment, listening to him as he spoke. She was surprised that he'd tell her that, since he didn't talk that much. He was a man of action, letting his actions talk for him. She nodded and looked back at the stars, thinking about what she should do.

She knew that if they still existed then the ideals of Celestial Being still did. She wouldn't live them down, but she also wanted to help the others. She didn't really know the other pilots, but they had already judged her since she was a member of Celestial Being and they knew a little bit about what they did.

"I want to help the others, even if I know it's against what our ideals. I can help out, but can I help out and still hold onto the ideals of Celestial Being?"

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He had to think about that for a moment. How can someone dedicated to the eradication of war help out a bunch of soldiers? But, then again, can someone eradicate war through the use of more violence?

"I believe you can," he answered, finally. He had faith that she'd be able to live that contradiction.

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Celestial Being was one rather large contradiction. They believed that they could end war by destroying the weapons on both sides. That had started to work, then they had turned their weapons against Celestial Being. They had tried to hunt them down and almost succeeded.

"Thank you, Setsuna," she said quietly. She was glad that he believed in her at least. She wasn't sure about the other Meisters.

[a_mere_human]

He may not have believed in God, but the people and ideals that he did believe in, he put his faith in wholeheartedly. Even if the whole world thought he was a fool for doing so. But if it was one thing he learned over the years, changing the world began with at least one fool who believed it was possible and was determined to try.

He nodded in acknowledgment, but didn't say anything more for the moment. He just stood next to her, quietly enjoying her company while they looked at the stars.

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Feldt never did say much when she was around others. She preferred to quietly listen and offer her opinions when she thought that she needed to. For now, the quietness of the Spacewalk and being close to him was good for her.

This was almost like home, but she didn't want to think about that right now. It still hurt to think about the friends that were gone.