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One last loose thread

The injuries weren't too bad, but just enough for Katara to have to stay in the med bay for at least a day so the swelling would go down: she was too tired to even heal herself, so she'd slept through most of it. When she was free to go though, she went straight to Alex's room. She could only imagine what the poor guy was going through: losing his girlfriend and then attacking people after losing control. From what she'd seen of him, he would probably be avoiding everyone, secluding himself even more.

And Katara wasn't about to let that happen.

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Alex might not have been listening, but he did hear Katara. Eventually her words would sink in, though it would take time. For all of his insecurity, he had never once given up in his life, even if he talked about all of his failures.

The one thing he didn't expect though was sympathy. He was waiting for someone to yell at him. Someone to hit him, to call him an idiot. For all that it made him feel worse in the short term, his father's belittlement when Alex was really down eventually became something that Alex could use to fight against. He could take those hateful words, and while he would say their truth, he would fight against them.

It was either that, or Mikel's carefully chosen words that would pull him out of his deepest depressions, since Mikel always seemed to know just what would make Alex smile despite himself, be it a memory or a joke. It was something that years of knowing a person intimately and having skill with words allowed.

He bit his lip, "I-I'm s-sorry..." He didn't even know where to start in that list, but he was sincere. "I...I w-wish L-Luna w-was here..." He had the feeling that she would know just what to say as well.

"I know," Katara said, looking saddened herself. "I remember when I first got on the ship, I was feeling pretty out of it myself. I didn't know what I was doing on this ship, I was feeling pretty out of it. I met Luna and though she seemed pretty odd, the way she thought was really interesting. In a way, it helped me get used to the different way everyone is on the ship."

She'd miss her all right: she was still IN her memories, and she clung to that now, glad Stacy hadn't taken that from her. "She liked you, you know. I talked to her before the date. I was actually really glad to see you two together. I knew that in time, she would have helped you a lot."

Alex made another pained noise, "S-she's... w-wonderful. L-Lovely L-Luna. S-something a-about her... sh-she made a-all the sh-shadows disappear." He whimpered again, going back into sobbing tears. "W-without h-her..." he said between jagged breaths, 'i-it's l-like th-there's m-more th-than e-ever b-before..."

Katara took his hands a moment. "Listen," she said. "I will let you know something. People like Luna you don;t come across everyday. They change you, make you think differently, and in the end they make you happy you know them. What would Luna want, if she were to see you like this? I bet she'd hope you would get through it, that you'd learn to trust more like you did with her I know she wanted it when we talked about your date. She definitely cared about what happened to you, and so do I. It's why I'm here now."

She put a hand to his shoulder a moment. "Take all the time you need to recover from this, but I wanted to do something to remember her. If you wanna help, meet me in the Outsider's headquarters when you have the chance. Luna had a room there, and I'm making sure its always her room. I'll need help from someone who cared about her a lot too."

Alex shuddered away from her when she touched him, pulling his hands back. He slowly pulled the sheet off his head to reveal puffy bloodshot eyes. He couldn't bring himself to look at Katara though. INstead he looked at an empty spot on the bed.

"I-it... i-it'll t-take a wh-while," he warned. He had never been one to quickly get over things.

Katara nodded, sighing. "Take all the time you need. I'm just letting you know something Alex...dealing with people isn't something you do halfheartedly. We're all in the same boat. I'm going to do something to remind myself Luna was here."

She stated at him a moment. "Take care."

Alex made a soft sound to acknowledge Katara, though he pulled the sheet up close around him. He knew that he wouldn't need to do anything special to remind himself of Luna. Just walking around the ship would remind him of their conversations every day.

She sighed. She was going to get started on the project herself then. Luna had been someone like she'd never met before, and even when she sometime disappeared, when she came back it always made her pretty happy.

"Please come back to the Outsider's hideout when you're feeling better. We miss you."

Alex made a sort of whimpering noise that sounded almost like an affirmative, but at the same time it could have been going against the idea of going to the hideout.

He couldn't see ever feeling better, though that small part of his mind still devoted to logic was feebly attempting- and failing- to remind him that it always got easier. He would just become used to whatever state it was, and at the very least would begin to function more normally.

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