take these broken wings | bendytimed to before shore leave [OPEN]

[angel-ofthe.livejournal.com]

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After he had left Tay, Cas had found his way back to hydroponics, back to the beer tree. He'd filled up his trench coat pockets with bottles, then set off looking for an out of the way place where he wouldn't be bothered, a place where he wouldn't be found.

Eventually he'd ended up in an out of the way corner of the hangar bay, sitting on the floor against the wall. He started working his way through the beer, and soon had a collection of empty bottles around his feet.

She had wings.

It hurt Castiel without even having to think about it, because he could still feel their loss, like a part of him was missing. A part of him was. And right now, trapped in this unfamiliar place, all he wished was that he had the freedom to fly. He wasn't used to being stuck in one place, unable to just leave with a thought, to be able to go anywhere he wanted. He was trapped, he was doubly trapped, and right now, it was breaking him a little.

He raised the next bottle to his lips.

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[notadamnangel.livejournal.com]

Dean fixed him a look, but then agreed to the rest of it. "Yeah, I even asked him why he was upset about it if it was his choice. But I guess, and damn straight, that's why we gotta keep an eye on him."

[chosenfamily]

"I'd be damned surprised if he could articulate why he's so upset. It's all too new to him." Sam sighed, rubbing his hand through his hair. "So we'll share the babysitting duties. He's our friend. Even if it means dragging him along to learn about the Rogue Squadron."

[notadamnangel.livejournal.com]

"Sure he can chill with the Jedi or something. They need more support people anyway. Or did."

[chosenfamily]

Sam tilted his head, watching Cas. "I think he could learn a lot from the Jedi, actually." It might help, even. "But yeah. More support people is definitely a good thing."

[notadamnangel.livejournal.com]

Dean glanced back at him, and snorted as he got a visual. "Yeah, be pretty badass with a lightsaber."

[chosenfamily]

"Hell yeah. I mean, if anybody is going to be in tune with the Force, it's Cas, right?"

[notadamnangel.livejournal.com]

"Yeah, he was pretty good with spellwork. I dunno, might introduce him to Kyle some time if he doesn't run into him."

[chosenfamily]

"Now that might be a good fit." Yeah, Sam had met Kyle. Nice enough guy, honestly. "It's a place to start, at least. And a lot more than we could have offered him at home."

[notadamnangel.livejournal.com]

"Sure when he sobers up, I'll ask him about it."

[chosenfamily]

Sam nodded and sighed. "Yeah. That's probably the best way to start. He...probably won't want to at the start. It's entirely possible he's picked up a few bad human habits off of us." Like being incredibly stubborn.

[notadamnangel.livejournal.com]

Dean took a glance at Cas again, and snorted, "Yeah no kidding. Been taking to self medicating like a Winchester, and think he's got your bitchface down." And yeah there was the stubborness. Face it, they were a bad influence on the guy.

[chosenfamily]

Sam looked at Dean, then down to Cas and back to Dean again. "You know. I'm starting to think that he's a good sign neither of us should ever have kids." Sam wanted a family. But...well, they WERE bad influences. And Cas really did get his ideas about being human from them.

[notadamnangel.livejournal.com]

"Hey, maybe you, but come on, man. I raised you more than Dad did, and you did ok." At least for a while...

[chosenfamily]

Right up until Dean died and tore Sam to pieces in the process.

Sam, who cheerfully flipped Dean off for that.

[notadamnangel.livejournal.com]

Well yeah... except for that.

Dean just gave him a look at that, and then snorted.

"You should probably grab some shut eye soon," He was just going to stay up and keep an eye on Cas and yeah. Sleep was way overrated anyway.

[chosenfamily]

Sam did manage a bit of a smile. "You should too, man." Yeah, Dean wasn't sleeping all that well. All the more reason. "Give me a couple hours and I'll take over for a bit?" Because Cas was likely to be out like a light for a while yet.

[notadamnangel.livejournal.com]

Dean just shrugged at that.

"I'm good for a while." He'll just forget to wake up Sam for his turn yeah.... That'll work.

[chosenfamily]

Yeah, Sam was pretty certain that Dean wouldn't wake him up. He eyed Dean for a moment, then sighed and nodded. "All right. Just wake me up so you can get some rest, all right?"

[notadamnangel.livejournal.com]

Yeah, right. Cas was parked on his bed, and he ain't sharing space with him. Be too weird. Anyway, he got five hours of sleep earlier in the week. That should keep him a bit longer. Things were under control, so Dean didn't answer his brother. Instead he put some tunes on to listen with headphones.

[chosenfamily]

They could switch beds, but whatever. Sam rolled his eyes and laid back, picking up his omnicomm again and read over things. Not that that lasted long because he was tired. And while he had his fair share of nightmares, Sam was almost used to them. Enough that he was able to sleep through them without the flailing that he used to get.

[notadamnangel.livejournal.com]

Dean was just going to be a sentry and watch over them both. He knew he'd get lectures in the morning, but hey whatever.