"I know, I know." If only there were a cutoff date to tell her when they could forget. If only there were a guarantee that the war would someday be a distant memory, instead of this presence that still feels so painfully current, still soaks into the moods and actions of every day. "And I trust the Med Bay staff. He's just...he's scared and angry and torn up because of me. It's an awful feeling. And I can't do anything to stop it."