trans_9 | This day stinks.

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This day stinks.

Normally, going to Billy and Ronnae's would be a great thing for her: it was one of those rare places where all of her troubles just melted away, where she could relax and be with friends. Of course, she thought that more when she was still holding Katara's memories. As Kaya, her perception of how things were started to change.

And today, it was by far one of the hardest days she ever dealt with. She had seen Billy's message and knew she wasn't the only one whose day had taken a turn for the worst. Her friends hadn't shunned her, and she'd met another airbender: those things, at least, were a feather in her cap. Everything else after, from finding out Azula was on the ship in the worst way possible to being in the med bay for two of her friends had worked its toll, and the others...it was obvious they felt they had been lied to, she couldn't blame them.

They wanted, needed Katara, but they had her instead, someone they didn't even know.

So she quietly walked over to Billy's, her head spinning and her mouth dry, hoping this would help.

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Billy looked up at Ronnie with a nervous smile. She was finally back, anxious to talk about something...was this bad? He'd have to brave it and find out.

"I always have a moment for you, Ronnie," he answered as steadily as he could, moving over to her. "I guess you want to get it out as soon as possible," he thought after taking a look at her.

"I'll be back soon," he called to Nokosi as he hurried before his girlfriend burst. "Sorry!"

Ronnae smiled and hugged Billy tightly before holding his hand and leading him to their room. She walked over and sat on the bed, and patted the area next to her for him to sit down.

She spoke while waiting to see what he would do. "I... I know I haven't been the greatest girlfriend... To be honest, I never thought I'd get to experience love in the first place... It's been... It's been hard adjusting."

She sighed. "But I want you to know, that you are the most important thing in my life right now, and I want you to feel comfortable being with me... And for that we have to trust each other completely, and be honest to each other all the time."

She looked down a bit embarrassed. "I know there's many things I've told you, and yet there's many things I know you wish to know about me... As such, I want to take this moment to do that. I want you to get all your worries out in the open and ask me anything you want. I will answer it all completely, no hiding this time around from my part. I love you Billy, I truly do."

Billy managed to relax just slightly, sitting on the bed beside her and watching with curious eyes. "You've been wonderful, Ronnie," he answered, brushing back a lock of her hair. "I can't believe you stayed with me after how much of a pain I've been these last few weeks."

He took a deep breath and held her hand. Honesty, huh? Was there a reason for this? Did she think he was hiding anything big? Well...guess he'd start the conversation and see how it went.

"I want to know whether you really feel safe staying with me, even now," he said quietly. "With Lord Zedd around, my love is a liability to you. It's very likely that he'll hurt you in an attempt to get to me. So...since you're the closest person to me and therefore the most likely target of his, I want you to know that I'll do anything in my power to keep you safe, but...I won't blame you if you want to break it off with me."

She blinked at him curiously, wondering if he understood just how much she would do for him.

She held his hand between both of hers. "Sweetheart, I grew up in a world surrounded by wars. My family all took part in said wars and every day was a day that I might not see them again. When I was of age and out of school, I myself took part of this war."

She paused to look at him seriously. "Battle after battle I was relentless in my drive to fight. I face horrors of which no one could even begin to dream of. I did this all for a cause, for my beliefs, for the people of Azeroth. Know tonight that I would do more for you than what I used to do for the war. No villain will ever crush the love I have for you. They can break my body, and they can break my spirit and my mind. I've been through it all, and I still would never stop loving you and I'd never stop wanting to be by your side."

Billy felt an interesting kind of pain in his heart at those words. Her love really did run that deep, didn't it? When he looked into her eyes, he couldn't help but believe her.

"So I suppose that's a no," he tried to joke to break the tension, leaning over to rub noses with her. "That's...been my main worry tonight. And I'm always going to worry about you, because I love you so much and want to see you happy and safe. But maybe we can fight it off together."

He hoped so.

She smiled, and blushed lightly, kissing his nose as she moved back to look at him.

"I told you that it took a lot to let anyone near me. And you broke those barriers with such ease I thought I was dreaming. I gave myself to you like I haven't for anyone else. You can rest assured that I will fight with you anything and for as long as you with me by your side. I chose my life mate the night of my wedding during that mission... and I have never second guessed it."

She took a moment to think on the words that Kaya spoke to her earlier. "I spoke to Kaya about my day. when I went to speak with Beastboy today, it was because of something that happened while I was in the med-bay. He confessed that he had feelings for me, which really surprised me. I never thought I'd find love and here things have changed greatly."

"I told him it was okay, I liked him greatly as well. In fact I had developed strong feelings after the many encounters we have spent together. But when I told him you were my chosen life mate he... he acted differently, he was certainly hurt... And that made me feel horrid as well cause I love him dearly as well."

She looked at him, wanting to be sure he was listening and letting him know that she was being sincere. "I met with him in the Outsiders HQ today. And we spoke... I didn't think he would have wanted to... but he listened to all I had to say. I explained that my feelings were true, that I was raised differently and that he had no reason to feel like I didn't appreciate everything he did for me, or that I didn't love him or care for him. And after a bit of talking he understood, and it was great! I felt a huge pressure lift off my chest and... And we kissed..."

She looked down sheepishly, "We came to the conclusion we'd be friends as we have always been. Since his world is much different than mine."

Billy listened intently, his heart lifting with the first few words. It felt so good to be loved by someone he loved with just as much intensity.

Everything started to think when she went on to describe things with Beast Boy. So they had mutual romantic feelings for each other. Did that mean she'd rather be with him? He didn't know much about the charming boy, other than that Kaya had threatened him back there 'ask Ronnie out, Billy, or Beast Boy will take her!'

It looked like he took her anyway.

Hurt bubbled up inside him before he could squash it entirely, though some shred inside Billy kept trying to listen. So Beast Boy wasn't accustomed to polyamory either?

He had to think carefully about this. Ronnie wanted both of them, that was for sure, and this whole monogamy concept was crushing her dreams. He knew it was making her uncomfortable. When he finally spoke up, his voice was sadder than before.

"I...actually have one more question, then. Can you live with this? With us? I know it would make you happiest if Beast Boy and I would both agree to share you, I just don't know if either of us are ready for that yet. If there's another alternative that would make you happier than staying with me, please..."

For a moment it seemed as if she was deep in thought, just pondering the words. Soon however, her eyes were watering.

What came next was a smile as she wiped her face, "You know, I knew, a long time ago, that our lifestyle was vastly different than some other cultures. I had come to accept it and be okay with that. I would never curve or deny my upbringing or let anyone else make me. That does not however mean that I don't understand others lifestyle and the way they grew up as well."

She wiped at her eyes once again, still smiling up at him. "I have a cousin who went through something similar... But her lover didn't give her an option... Instead he told her to make a choice or he'd leave. And that crushed her... She loved them both dearly, but in the end decided to stay... out of love for her chosen life mate... It... It didn't end well... She felt caged and eventually lost the light in her eyes, living each day just for the sake of living..."

She sighed squeezing his hand lovingly. "But you're not asking me that... You're giving me the choice to find my happiness... And that means a lot more to me than you might think. I am happy with this, I know that I made the right choice, and I know you both understand this. I wouldn't want it any other way Billy... If in the future I get the chance to have multiple mates that is fine, but for now... while you adjust to having an odd girlfriend... I'm happy. Even if you never adjust to that lifestyle I'd be fine still."

She waited... looking into his eyes and studying him.

Billy listened patiently, holding to her hand. He owed her this honesty.

"I'd never trap you, Ronnie. I appreciate your giving us time, more than you probably know. It's likely more than I deserve. Let's just...keep building things up, possibly including getting on friendlier terms with Beast Boy myself, and see where they take us, all right? You've been more wonderful to me than I can say, never doubt that."

He held her gaze, eyes full of emotion: particularly love. That was the way it should be with her.

Ronnae's lip quivered a bit and yet she smiled up at him with love. She leaned up slowly, looking at him for any sign of doubt. Once she was sure that he meant everything, understanding her and accepting her heart, she pressed her lips against his, her arms wrapping around his neck and kissing him with pent up emotion. She wanted him feel how much he meant to her and how much she loved him.

Billy knew then that things would be okay somehow. He couldn't let it end in heartbreak for her, because that meant heartbreak for him too.

He sighed into the kiss, gently lapping at her lips while he held her waist tightly. They didn't need forever, just...this one long moment of love.

Thoughts of comforting and trying to awkwardly befriend Beast Boy entered his mind, but that could wait. Tonight they had each other, Nokosi, and Kaya. He would focus.

Edited 2011-04-04 01:06 (UTC)

Her hand ran idly and lovingly over his hair, playing gently with his ears and running circles on his lower back affectionately. She parted her lips only slightly, open enough for her small tongue to taste his lips.

Right now her emotions had settled down, and she was in the moment of how great her heart felt at the moment. That problems would arise in the future for them? Of that she was a hundred percent sure, but she knew that they could fight them together.

When the moment ended, he hugged Ronnie tightly, still tasting their happiness on his lips.

"Thanks, Ronnie. I'm really relieved that we're handling things so well, but...I think Kaya and Nokosi need us downstairs. Ready?"

"They're grown ups, they'll be fine for a little longer~" Ronnae teased, pushing Billy on the bed pressing her lips on his once more, a bit more needy this time. Her hands now played on his chest, leaving sweet caresses over his skin.

Billy yelped but allowed himself to be forced down, looking up at her with a definite spark in his eyes. He slid his hands around to the back of her robe, rubbing her back through it with one hand and playing with her hair with the other. He kissed urgently, varying the pressure and teasing the corners of her lips.

"If only for a few minutes," he said in nothing less than a flirtatious tone, though he thoroughly intended to keep track of the time. "Can't say I mind the alternative!"

She giggled at his eagerness to play along, nipping at his lower lip playfully before kissing him again, deeply and passionately.

She slowly and carefully moved on top of him, not breaking the kiss as she pulled the covers over them right after. A bit of fun never killed anyone right? Besides, it should give their friends time to better acquaint themselves!

Billy's eyes went wide when he felt the covers shift. Not that he wasn't excited by the prospect, but when he'd said 'few minutes' he meant heavy kissing. Not...everything, not with their friends downstairs! It was wildly inappropriate.

"Do you really think we can?" Billy asked in a whisper. "They're right downstairs! Nokosi will definitely hear us, and I wouldn't put it past him to tell Kaya what's going on if she somehow doesn't hear it too," he admitted in a rush, a blush on his cheeks.

Edited 2011-04-04 01:52 (UTC)

For once her cheeks didn't flush, instead her eyes closed slightly, looking like she was eying her prey. "I can be quiet if you can~" She said in a devious voice as she pressed herself a bit harder against him.

"A challenge, then?" Billy asked, his voice pitching up with desire. Her eyes...her warmth...he wanted it, that was for sure.

"Then my lips are sealed," he finished with a quiet whisper as he drew closer to her.

And that was the start of a very, very pleasant interlude. He hoped in the back of his mind that the other two wouldn't mind their extended absence, but the front of his mind? Very happy indeed.

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