If I Ever [Open]

[lackofdarkwings.livejournal.com]

The Sensoriums were full of music once again that evening when most of the crew had gone to bed. Matt was leaning back, playing on his guitar. While he preferred to make his own music, there was the rare few times that he played from other people's productions.

The holographic band were idly playing along and he rose his voice in song.

You could say I lost my faith in science and progress
You could say I lost my belief in the holy church
You could say I lost my sense of direction
You could say all of this and worse but

If I ever lose my faith in you
There'd be nothing left for me to do

Some would say I was a lost man in a lost world
You could say I lost my faith in the people on TV
You could say I'd lost my belief in our politicians
They all seemed like game show hosts to me

If I ever lose my faith in you
There'd be nothing left for me to do

I could be lost inside their lies without a trace
But every time I close my eyes I see your face

I never saw no miracle of science
That didn't go from a blessing to a curse
I never saw no military solution
That didn't always end up as something worse but
Let me say this first

If I ever lose my faith in you
There'd be nothing left for me to do

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[avenging-bat.livejournal.com]

Amongst those listening in? Was Jean-Paul.

He felt ready, felt confident, but there was still so much doubt in him. Mostly because he was still reeling from what had happened so much earlier. He recognized the young man playing as one of the few he attacked.

Jean-Paul wanted to apologize, wanted to say something, but for now opted to just watch.

[lackofdarkwings.livejournal.com]

Matt realized he had an audience. The man in the armor he realized, but then realized he was enjoying the music. So he swapped to a song that he had kept in reserve, having finally worked out the bugs in the music.

Didn’t know why I couldn’t fly
Didn’t want to be stuck on the ground
I wanted to soar across the sky
But something was holding me down

What had me cower in fear?
What was it I couldn’t see?
The answer near, but so unclear
I was fighting the demon in me

The demon in me
The demon in me
The battle weird, over all that I feared
I was fighting the demon in me

He fell on me when I was weak
Made me feel so lazy and dumb
He talked to me deep in my sleep
My mind and my soul overcome

I started to just let him win
I decided to just let it be
It was up to me not to give in
I was trapped by the demon in me

The demon in me
The demon in me
My head in a spin, my strength wearing thin
I was trapped by the demon in me

Asked myself, what did I want?
Kick back or just go for broke?
My dreams continued to haunt
I’d get close – then the demon said choke

Somehow you gotta step up
Stop buying excuses for free
So I went face-to-face, laid claim to my space
And rocked the demon…

The demon in me
The demon in me
I recovered my spark, got free of the dark
And I rocked the demon in me
The demon in me
I rocked the demon ïn me…

Hopefully it would get the message across that Matt felt that Jean-Paul would realize how he himself felt.

[its-keeper.livejournal.com]

You-know-who is clapping in the audience. Matt can always count on his number 1 girl to cheer.

[lackofdarkwings.livejournal.com]

Matt was grinning widely as he decided that now was the time.

Strumming up another song, he started to sing again.

"This one's going out to Will, my love and the light of my life."

So many strangers on the street.
Yeah, nearly everyone you meet.
Can’t relate, can’t translate, can’t create
A connection. No.

Easier to keep your distance.
Tread the path of least resistance.
Don’t engage, keep to your cage, stay offstage
For protection.

Then everything changes.
She’s there. Life rearranges.
Winged angel from above…
Helped me find the Will… the Will to love…
The Will to love… The Will to love…

I figured I’d stay on the shelf.
Truth be told, didn’t trust myself:
Always fade, don’t make the grade, too afraid
Of rejection. Oh…

I didn’t think I had the strength
To find a girl on my wavelength.
Just a runt, always punt. No will to hunt
For perfection.

Then everything changes.
She’s there. Life rearranges.
Winged angel from above…
Helped me find the Will… the Will to love…
The Will to love… The Will to love…

Game’s full of surprises.
Live our share of compromises.
Still when push comes to shove…
She’s just the Will to love.
She’s just the Will to love.
I found the Will to love.

And everything changes.
She’s here. Life rearranges.
Winged angel from above…
She is just the Will… the Will to love.
The Will to love… The Will to love… Oh…
The Wïll to love…