"She was the last good part of med bay. After you left, that is. And after Rory turned out to be a backstabbing fuckhead." Not that that was Rory's fault, but Howard refuses to believe he's being unreasonable about someone being repodded against their will. It's clearly a betrayal of the highest order and no amount of logic will stand up to the absolute tidal wave of hurt it caused.

"I have a journal, you know. If I drop dead one day you have my permission to find it, read everything written in orange pen, and burn it. And then don't read anything else." If Anwei can find it, that is. It's hidden in his room at the Inn. "Everything I know about the ship and the war is in orange."

He does not, however, let go of the hammer, watching the letters. Wow, way to trigger a massive headache, looking at those. He switches to looking at Anwei instead.