Thankfully neither of them had seen Lash's realization, or they wouldn't commenting about her now on what she should and should not be doing. The Wunderkind wanted to, well, lash out at them and if they just gave her a damn minute to figure it out and stop moving Zetta's body around like a cheap doll she could do that. Yet she wasn't moving anything, thinking about everything swirling in her head. Well Zetta's head too right now, technically. Maybe if they knew that there was something blistering hot that was burning in her chest so much that the pain was almost unbearable, they wouldn't have...uhhh...wouldn't have done what?
'It's not the worst thing in the world' maybe for Mindy, but for Lash it went against everything she stood for. Her entire life, laid bare. The Black Hole teachings, the emotional control and disregard for anything nice and showing caring, the mutual acceptance between her and Zetta of ignoring their feelings for each other by just going off to blow something up and placing it behind a simple excuse of 'it's fun'. Fun she could do. This was...this was...
Two birds of a feather, stuck together...
There was a bit of fear too. What was she doing? What was she thinking? She was stuck in here with someone she...someone she...liked. She liked a lot. But that was an emotional response! Now she was a traitor...
Traitor to what? To a regime, hell, a world that didn't exist anymore? She could, she could...
She could do what she wanted!
...It was just a question of what she wanted exactly.
...
The thoughts stopped swirling, focused on a single thing. Maybe it had been the encouragement, as terrible as it had been from Ruffnut. Maybe it was Sakura's words, Pram's teasing laughter, Mindy's advice. Maybe it was just something in Lash that finally snapped. Maybe it was this entire week finally getting to her. Who knew, really. What she did know was that four words flew out of her mouth, just between the both of them that the others couldn't hear, in a confused tone as she surprised even herself.
"I love you, Zetta?"
It was tiny, meek, but there. And then, it grew, as it became Truth and flourished, as if her entire life had been grey before that devoid of color and those simple words, those four word, with nothing more than five letters, each carried everything and made her entire brain overflow. Shit. No wonder Black Hole stopped anything like this from happening, she could only imagine all the problems. This was even more powerful than hope, defiance, duty and everything else they wanted to crush from the other nations mixed together. This was probably, she realized, what Sturm, what Von Bolt had feared the most. Not just the love of a country, but the love of the people you wanted to defend.
Mindy was right. She suddenly did feel stronger, even if she wasn't in her own body. Maybe this would all make her life complicated that it ever had been before. But that is what life was about, right? Taking risks. And a Black Hole Wunderkind would not be true to herself if she didn't take it.
And just like that, the final piece of the puzzle fell into place and she said it again, this time a bit more certain.
I love you Zetta...
And again.
DID YOU HEAR THAT? I LOVE YOU ZETTA!
But she had said it. Then, when it was done, began to laugh at the absurdity of it all, sounding mad, probably, but she didn't care. Each giggle grew louder, more powerful than the one before. Not just because of how afraid she had been, but now that she said it, hey it wasn't bad at all! It felt great actually! She could get used to something like this! It wasn't going to stop her from blowing things up! It didn't make things suddenly less fun! It wasn't going to stop anything at all! Zetta was powerful, he wouldn't get repodded, she was the Wunderkind, she wouldn't get repodded either. There was nothing to fear about this!
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'It's not the worst thing in the world' maybe for Mindy, but for Lash it went against everything she stood for. Her entire life, laid bare. The Black Hole teachings, the emotional control and disregard for anything nice and showing caring, the mutual acceptance between her and Zetta of ignoring their feelings for each other by just going off to blow something up and placing it behind a simple excuse of 'it's fun'. Fun she could do. This was...this was...
Two birds of a feather, stuck together...
There was a bit of fear too. What was she doing? What was she thinking? She was stuck in here with someone she...someone she...liked. She liked a lot. But that was an emotional response! Now she was a traitor...
Traitor to what? To a regime, hell, a world that didn't exist anymore? She could, she could...
She could do what she wanted!
...It was just a question of what she wanted exactly.
...
The thoughts stopped swirling, focused on a single thing. Maybe it had been the encouragement, as terrible as it had been from Ruffnut. Maybe it was Sakura's words, Pram's teasing laughter, Mindy's advice. Maybe it was just something in Lash that finally snapped. Maybe it was this entire week finally getting to her. Who knew, really. What she did know was that four words flew out of her mouth, just between the both of them that the others couldn't hear, in a confused tone as she surprised even herself.
"I love you, Zetta?"
It was tiny, meek, but there. And then, it grew, as it became Truth and flourished, as if her entire life had been grey before that devoid of color and those simple words, those four word, with nothing more than five letters, each carried everything and made her entire brain overflow. Shit. No wonder Black Hole stopped anything like this from happening, she could only imagine all the problems. This was even more powerful than hope, defiance, duty and everything else they wanted to crush from the other nations mixed together. This was probably, she realized, what Sturm, what Von Bolt had feared the most. Not just the love of a country, but the love of the people you wanted to defend.
Mindy was right. She suddenly did feel stronger, even if she wasn't in her own body. Maybe this would all make her life complicated that it ever had been before. But that is what life was about, right? Taking risks. And a Black Hole Wunderkind would not be true to herself if she didn't take it.
And just like that, the final piece of the puzzle fell into place and she said it again, this time a bit more certain.
I love you Zetta...
And again.
DID YOU HEAR THAT? I LOVE YOU ZETTA!
But she had said it. Then, when it was done, began to laugh at the absurdity of it all, sounding mad, probably, but she didn't care. Each giggle grew louder, more powerful than the one before. Not just because of how afraid she had been, but now that she said it, hey it wasn't bad at all! It felt great actually! She could get used to something like this! It wasn't going to stop her from blowing things up! It didn't make things suddenly less fun! It wasn't going to stop anything at all! Zetta was powerful, he wouldn't get repodded, she was the Wunderkind, she wouldn't get repodded either. There was nothing to fear about this!
Nothing but fear itself.
Now she wasn't afraid anymore.