Vala wasn't the best at dealing with her emotions, in fact she was terrible at it. She'd been slowly learning to open up back home and yet here it seemed the best course of action was to bottle it all up and deny that anything affected her. But things had affected her. She'd only just been accepted into SG-1 officially and things with Daniel had been starting to look more promising. Dare she say it, she'd been happy. She'd never felt like she belonged anywhere and when she finally did, the universe had decided to chew her up and spit her back out minus everything she'd earned and fought for.
She was back to being the outsider again, all that work she'd put into making Daniel believe in her and trust her and now she was the equivalent of some woman he'd met years ago briefly and had forgotten completely. She knew he was just feeling obligated to her because of her story. Vala's emotions had been slowly mounting ever since she arrived, she'd ignored them and pushed them back til the only possible outlet was an explosive outburst like this. The drunkenness probably didn't help either.
"Oh stop being so nice, Daniel. I survived perfectly well on my own for years, I think I can negotiate a few stairs without killing myself." The way she said it wasn't half as hard as she'd have liked. She wanted to sound like she didn't care about him either way, that he was something she was tolerating, not vice versa.
"Do you want to know the truth about me?" Vala was barely holding the tears back, but she refused to give in to it. "I lied and cheated and stole, I lied my way into the SGC, and I've done nothing but cause problems ever since. That's the truth of it. So I really think I should go, it's best for everyone."
She got to her feet, stumbling round the end of the bed unsteadily in the dark. Vala just wanted to run.
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She was back to being the outsider again, all that work she'd put into making Daniel believe in her and trust her and now she was the equivalent of some woman he'd met years ago briefly and had forgotten completely. She knew he was just feeling obligated to her because of her story. Vala's emotions had been slowly mounting ever since she arrived, she'd ignored them and pushed them back til the only possible outlet was an explosive outburst like this. The drunkenness probably didn't help either.
"Oh stop being so nice, Daniel. I survived perfectly well on my own for years, I think I can negotiate a few stairs without killing myself." The way she said it wasn't half as hard as she'd have liked. She wanted to sound like she didn't care about him either way, that he was something she was tolerating, not vice versa.
"Do you want to know the truth about me?" Vala was barely holding the tears back, but she refused to give in to it. "I lied and cheated and stole, I lied my way into the SGC, and I've done nothing but cause problems ever since. That's the truth of it. So I really think I should go, it's best for everyone."
She got to her feet, stumbling round the end of the bed unsteadily in the dark. Vala just wanted to run.