Sirius was silent for a while, still staring at the chessboard.

"I knew you wouldn't blame me." He said slowly. "Even if you should." He held up a hand to preemptively silence Harry. "I know. I know you and maybe you're right. I'll leave it there for now." Sirius didn't think he could ever forgive himself but that wasn't something he was going to admit to his godson. That was one more worry the boy- the man- didn't need.

Sirius finally looked at him. "I die, don't I? You lost me too?"