"Yes. 'Messy'." Her face betrays nothing, but her voice gets detached and clinical as she thinks back on the way she broke another human's face on her hands. The way she still has dried blood and tissue under her nails, so deep down it's painful and difficult to dig out. "'Conduct unbecoming of an officer'."

She laces her fingers up and folds her hands, fingers shaking ever so slightly. "I don't believe a full report exists anywhere, although from the sounds of it rumor might get out. So soon enough I'll have my crazed Yeerk victim status back. Yay me."

She'll never live her past down, but it occurs to her that if she did a better job ignoring it people could at least set it aside, like they did when she first arrived on the ship, before she announced her host status to everyone aboard. She just assumes everyone's seen it now.