"Not really. Mostly just not seeing the point in cleaning up. If people want to buy tickets to see the crazy person in the zoo, they may as well get the whole package." She takes a deep breath. She doesn't see the point in pretending to be well when she so obviously isn't. Healthy people don't rip other people's faces off and get joy out of it.

And it's incredibly hard for her to care right now. Her image of the put-together, composed survivor has been shattered. Since she can't put it back together, she may as well give up. No need to put effort into something you can only do half-assed.

"Good. You're not allowed to die on me."