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Reliving your past through innocent eyes. [Open]

Now that everything was over, and people regained their memories and appropriate ages, Ronnae found herself staring at the sketchpad her younger self was carrying around. She was somehow scared of opening it. Fearful that the memories would be too painful. She had, after all, done her best to not think about things while on the ship. She knew it would only bring her heartache knowing that they might or might not be in the pods and even then, would they be the same?

She sighed as she settled under the large tree that made up Nokosi's house, slumping down till she sat on the grassy floor, relaxing against the smooth bark of the tree. Placing the sketchpad on her lap, she looked at it with hesitation, maybe she'll take a peak.

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And look who happens to come upon you right now: as it is, Kaya was still reeling from Matt's departure, and wanted nothing more than to hide under a rock, or at least forget about everyone for a little bit. There would be so much to do in time, but right now she just wanted to find a nice, quiet place to settle and rest.

Also? Billy had said Kaya could stay with him and Ronnae, and Kaya was doing her best not to be a bother when she could manage. That meant doing whats he could to help the pair of them around the house. It at least kept her occupied.

"Hey, what do you have there?" She asked gingerly.

Billy came bearing a simple gift. Maybe it wasn't much, but he hoped it would at least do something for her mood. They hadn't had much chance to meet and talk when she first recovered, something he really regretted. New crises always got in the way at the worst times!

He walked up to Ronnae as silently as possible, placing the little crown on he head. It was a crown of sunflowers, one that had been made for the play and discarded for a real silver crown. Fair enough, but he liked the flowers! They reminded him of the girl he was kneeling in front of.

"What's on your mind?" And he reached for her hand, wondering.

Zouichi spotted Ronnae pretty much by accident while he was wandering through the City. She looked like she was staring at a sketchbook of some kind -- a discouraged artist, maybe? He walked up a little closer to her, shushing the brightly-feathered bird (http://www.flickr.com/photos/56712133@N04/5669471968/in/photostream) on his shoulder.

"Hi. Er, Ronnae, right? I think I've seen you around the ship, but I don't think I've ever gotten the chance to talk to you."

Ronnae looked up curiously, a smile on her face both from the very beautiful bird and the kind man that had stopped by.

"Oh, y-yeah. I've seen you around as well, Zouichi? It's nice to finally have a chance to meet you." she voiced timidly.

Billy seemed to have been getting better at sneaking up on her, maybe he was hanging out with Nokosi more? Regardless, the small jump she did as she was brought back from her daydream was quickly replaced with a slight blush and a smile.

".... I... I missed you." even as the words left her lips, she didn't know exactly why she said them but, it just felt like the right thing to say at the moment.

He nodded, returning her smile. She seemed awfully nervous about something. "Is that your sketchbook? You know, you're the first person around here I've seen actually drawing something. Guess they're too busy."

"Oh! Hey Kaya, I ah... h-hadn't seen you in a w-while...." Yup, ever since you gave her a helluva hard time you dimwitted half breed... Ronnae shook her head, her face reddening a bit in embarrassment as she looked away a bit fidgety.

"It's... it's a sketchbook I seemed to have been drawing on... during the whole clock thing...."

She smiled, a bit bittersweetly, "It is... I really enjoy drawing. It's one of the few ways I can focus and keep my mind busy... But this one was mine when I was suffering from the effects of the clock. And I think I remember I was trying to draw as many of my memories as possible so that I wouldn't forget them..."

"The feeling's mutual," he was quick to say, simply enjoying sitting next to her for the moment. Taking things easy, one step at a time. "You definitely kept me busy, though. Who knew there were that many ways to make a mess out of me?"

All the while, he'd missed this. Quiet time together.

Kaya noticed the blushing and laughed, having a pretty good idea what might have caused it. "It's OK Ronnae, I know you were under the spell of that time dragony thing. It wasn't funny back then, but after that it actually is pretty hilarious! Granted, I think you would have even given Katara a run for her money.."

She smiled. 'Mind if I have a look, or is it too private?"

She blushed, remembering just how energetic she used to be. Her energy hadn't faltered of course... but it was mainly left for the battlefield, or other activities. Nowadays she generally was very reserved, quiet and shy... much the opposite of her younger self.

"It almost feels surreal... After all that..." she said in a small voice, relaxing against him much like she used to when she was sad or depressed.

She supposed it was sort of funny, but Kaya was trained... if it had been someone normal... they might have gotten hurt. She sighed, it seemed her younger self failed to realize that not everyone is from Azeroth or some other world with resilient beings.

Her face remained the tell-tale crimson color at the question and she smiled a bit sadly as she looked down at the sketchbook. "To be honest, I haven't even opened it myself... Not counting my younger self of course... since she was the one drawing in here..."

Billy pulled her back to rest on his chest, his arms holding her as securely as possible. He hoped she'd feel comforted, at least a little.

"I can hardly imagine what it had to have been like. When I heard what had happened, I was really worried."

He still felt guilty about his untimely disappearance. That mission was a horrible time to get captured, right when she was going through the worst of it.

Ronnae smiled, he had a way to make her feel better no matter what the situation was, specially when he held her against that most favorite of places.

Shaking her head, she looked down a bit embarrassed. "You had your own troubles to deal with... And I wish I wouldn't have let myself be there when the clock chimed again... I would have been able to help you when the rescue mission was called..."

She was still feeling guilty herself, her lover in trouble and her not being able to do anything about it... It seemed their thoughts were pretty similar.

As far as Kaya was concerned, it was water over the bridge. Besides, how was Ronnae to be held responsible for the things that her younger self did? That would have just been ridiculous.

Now Kaya was interested "Aw, you were a very sweet kid, despite your mischievousness. I'm sure it wasn't anything bad!"

Ronnae shook her head a bit sadly, even as a smile rose on her lips. "It's not that I expect it to be bad... It's just that I've been avoiding thinking about home... and my past... my family and friends from there... And if I remember right, those were the memories I was losing as time went backwards... I'm sure that's what's drawn in the book..."

"Aha. It's useful to have something like that, especially when you have a lot to think about."

He raised an eyebrow. "That's one way to make use of the Clock, I guess. So, did it work? Were you able to remember what you wanted to?"

"It wasn't your fault," Billy murmured, leaving a kiss in her hair. "And it wasn't just you. I came back to find most of my friends in trouble. If I hadn't fallen for that easy trap, I'd have been here to support you. Where I needed to be."

He raised a finger to his neck, tracing the line the guards had 'practiced' cutting. "I thought of you all that time. I imagined what might've happened if I'd been sacrificed there. And yet I had no idea what you were going through."

Time to propose a solution. He curled around her as best he could, tapping her book. "Do you want to look through it?"

Maybe in a little? It seemed the talk only furthered her fears of losing that which she held most precious. Her body curled up to his, arms wrapping around his form and face buried against his chest. It wouldn't take long before he could feel the wetness on his shirt and the quivering body of his lover.

She held on for as long as she could, desperately needed to hear that heartbeat that calmed her nightmares and fed her own heart.

Kaya put a hand to Ronnae's shoulder. She may have still been recovering from her own shock, but she would push that aside if it meant making sure a good friend was able to feel better.

"I've always thought that the past, no matter if its good or bad, is always a part of you, what makes you who you are. So whatever is in the sketchpad, I'm sure it will be an important piece of you."

"It did it's job... I think? I know I drew on it, and I have faint ideas of what I drew in it... But I haven't checked it ever since I regained my age... I've been... hesitant... They're pleasant memories... memories I hold dear in my heart and mind every day but... I don't know if I'm ready to go through them."

She couldn't help but smile up at her friend, even if her eyes had misted up some.

"Thanks Kaya... That means a lot to me."

...way to blow it, Cranston, Billy thought to himself upon feeling the ferocity of her grip. She was upset, but of course she would be! They'd been through quite the emotional roller coaster. It meant more than he could say that she was safe and her proper size again. He held her just as firmly, steadily stroking her back while he whispered in her ear.

"Shh. We're safe now, love. I know it's not okay, but it can be. I'm here."

If only he had a blanket to wrap around her. It could really be used for privacy right now.

Cocking his head at the sound of Ronnae's voice, the parrot currently perched on Zouichi's shoulder hopped down to the ground, using his wings to brake his momentum. Once Alan had safely landed, he looked up at her with one beady eye, curious.

"Ah, sorry about that. I think he's trying to figure out if you've got any treats on you."

Zouichi sat down nearby, keeping an eye on the bird for any misbehavior. "If they're memories you're fond of, why not revisit them?"

It was one of the few things that made being without Matt bearable: there were still her friends here, lending her strength just as easily as she would give them her own.

"It's no problem, Ronnae. I know you'd do the same for me: you already are, by letting me stay with you guys for a little while."

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