Kai stopped leaning back against the wall, leaning forward now as he started getting into the ranting. "Guts. The word you're looking for is space guts. And everything and everyone. You have no idea if the people you knew are dead or in those slime bags, and there's no way to find out. And you want to kick yourself because dammit, you were just getting used to having them around, and you shouldn't feel this --"

He gestured vaguely in the air in front of him, trying to put the frustration into words.